oversensitivity and double-standards plague our world.

one is expected 2 turn d otr cheeck when outright offensiveness is pushed in their faces.. then when d irritation is called out.. foul play is called..

no1 ever says tings witout reason.

when one wants to act mature.. dun act it.. b it.. all the wae..

dun expect benefits witout responsibility.

dun make noise once d fun stops.



no offense to females, i'm all 4 equal rights!

but on d topic of equal rights.

u dun expect equal chances.. witout equal responsibility rite?

dun expect guys 2 repect u as an equal an then expect them 2 treat u lyk queens, giving u special treatment.

cuz tt.. is a fine eg of double standards


an 1 more ting.. juz cuz no noise wuz made. does not mean tt no hurt wuz felt.
thus, another aspect of maturity is considering ur actions on others.

self-centeredness, in ANY religion, is frowned upon.

speak less, do more.

hey guys..

wanna recomend engrish! hahaha:

to all those i dun lyk..


an introducing pens 4 a special grp of ppl.. hahah


so cracks me up..

anw.. ny's coming! prob spending it wit sulyn.. *winks* bet we're going 4 nice dinner an dessert.. hmmmm sounds wae wae wae cool.. hahaha =P

happy new yr ppl =) God Bless!

new yr resolutions..

1. do TEOSL
2. sulyn can get a job she reali enjoys
3. don't drift apart when i get into army
4. serve more in church
5. improve my drums by practising
6. draw nearer 2 God
7. be more honest wit myself
8. get sulyn an qin a church 2 join. =)

more mayb nxt time..

=P

thnx sulyn 4 d new skin! hahaha i tink it's fantabulous.. hahaha if there is a work liddat.. anw.. tink there's a new song up.. so.. hmmm change 2 IE an come baq.. an wait.. hahaha =P hehe..stupid dude 4 my old skin deleted d picture.. so no hav alreadi.. oh wel.. hahaha =P

love u dearling.. hhahaah =-P

hmmmm chrsitmas 2dae! hmmm merry an blessed christmas! 2 one an all..

it's lyk totally great dis yr la.. nice time spent wit frens.. esp my girlfren sulyn.. not 2 wit sd clique.. an also.. catching up wit chua.. totally look 4ward 2 hanging out again dude..

onli downer.. d passing of my granduncle..

dis wuz not unexpected.. but still feels sad.. thankful he is now wit God..

haha on 2 a serious matter.. this holiday mood has got me in a reflective mood..

i hav grown.. in all facets during this time..

gone r the daes by which my admittedly foolish self still resided in me.. when i wuz 16.. or even in early jc 1.. tings hav changed.. in this few yrs.. i've seen more than i hav seen.. i'm done more than i hav ever done..

i experienced regreat at foolish decisions.. an i hav seen many types of ppl.. frm totally cool ppl.. whom i hav come 2 respect.. 4 various reasons.. an also.. ppl hu noe nth yet shoot their mouths off.. wa.. tt 1.. damn irritating..

hahah dis period of time.. d biggest downer is d fact tt my eyes hav opened.. 2 c the BIGGEST ever kind of fake ppl ard me.. who try 2 live up an image of themselves.. because tt's all they hav.. cuz tt's all they r..

insecure..

ppl hu tok so much.. cuz tt's all they can do.. never inward looking...

lyk crabs in a bucket tt pull 1 down tt tries 2 escape..

hahah well.. tt's life 4 u then.. guess d daes by which we make frens or all kinds of relationships r done juz 4 itself.. motives come in.. but i guess.. tings grow..

hahah i guess.. i admit.. if i were 2 tok 2 my 16 yr old self.. who juz finished o's an waiting 4 his results.. i mite sae..

'u tink u noe alot joash.. but guess wat, U NOE NTH! cuz u haven't seen enuf 2 make judgements..'

juz lyk i cun tell my post-army frens tt i noe army.. y? cuz i haven't gone thru it yet now hav i? hahah all i hav a set sterotypes tt i tink r real.. as real is i tot my dad wuz a superhero when i wuz 5..

'make me fly daddy!'

hahah

sounds so weird now rite?

ahahahah

u may get angry over a snakebite.. an then tink u can write a bk abt how 2 handle snakes.. but tink abt it.. snakes onli bite in defence.. an also.. 1 snake bite does not make u a snake expert.. exp mayb at hurting snakes an then blaming them.. cuz d bite wuz due a handling screwup..

i guess.. learning is sumting tt is alwaes supposed 2 happen..

i used 2 tink i wuz an extrovert.. but as time changed.. i'm now kinda introveted..

hahah mayb it's juz me learning when 2 keep my mouth shut.. cuz seriously.. i dun tink i m tt terrible at starting an holding on 2 conversations.. hahah but i noe sumtimes.. toking 2 much juz shows how foolish i m..

an also learning 2 look ahead. instead of tinking for myself.. (it's still nice tho.. hahahahaah =P)

hahah hmmm in ani conflict.. there r 2 sides.. juz lyk most proper arts students are supposed to learn in history..

all hav their sides..

an mistakes..

an most actions r merely reactions..

hahah..

anw

damn.. gift exchange wit family onli on new yrs dae..

mite not hav much cash till then..

but it will come..

dis christmas..

i found out at least a little bit.. wat it means 2 love..

not much! but a peek..

dear! 2nd christmas..

onli abt damn alot more tt we're gonna spend 2gether rite?

hahaha..

*muacks*

(we're oni getting closer rite?)

nxt pt:

thnx 4 all d gifts.. sorrie i'm broke.. but yeah.. it's reali touching..

2 all my brothers an sisters in christ.. my clique mates.. 4 brothers an 1 girlfren.. =)

an old frens 4 juz being ard..

happy holidaes..

haiz* juz tinking.. i'm starting 2 miss those daes of going 2 sch.. not actaully doing d work.. but physically going 2 sch.. those daes were so great..

will utterly miss d classroom.

whooo i'm here! baq frm i dunno where

hmmm wat has happened since i last updated? wit words i mean. hmmm
A's over, Prom, swent swimming.. slacked. acted in christmas play as angel/simon/disciple/crowd. slacked again. (details look at otr ppl's blog. i lazy)

juz here 2 sae.. i completed Prince of Persia 3! yeah! 1st ps game i completed. wahahha.. hmmm i tink i did it in a wk or sumting liddat. so mite hav 2 move on.

on a serious note. time realli flies. christmas i coming an i got a gift xchange an stuff. plus presents 2 buy.. so i kinda gotta save.

but t's not my point. sulyn's i malaysia an i reali miss her.. haha.. gone frm mondae 2 till fridae. hmmm i guess i'm juz doing stuff 2 keep myself occupied. an i hope she's fine as well.. haha.. reali not used 2 not having toks on d fone at nite. last nite picked up d fone an realised i cldn't call.. hahaha so mising is an understatement.. =) but yeah.. hope she's having lots of fun buy cheap an sometimes real shit frm malaysia! hahaha. missing u babe!

squash an swimming 2dae revealed some tings.. i'm not fit, an i dun hav alot of concentration.. hahahah oh well..

i tink i getting bored of maple alreadi.. it's onli fun when another person is playing.. cuz compared d prince of persia.. d graphics r lyk.. ..... an dun hget me started on d movement.. hahahah.. but it's still mindless fun.. hahah

hmmm otr then tt.. hope i find stuff 2 do.. or i mite juz do a whole dae slp spell.. hahha

army is still far away! i hope. =P

wow! havent updated so long my com4got my pw an had 2 retype my password 2 blogger.. hahaha

damn man.. exams drawing 2 a close.. feel dis overwhelming sense of relief tt is washing over me.. an i calm but gradually acceptance of the fact that..

HISTORY IS OVER!

WE'RE FINISHED!

hahahaha =P in more waes than 1..

but there's still gothic.. which i dn mind doing..... but haiz* thus is drawing nearer an nearer..

noe it'll pass fast if i juz slack it off.. but nono! cun do tt now cn i.. hahhaa..

but yeah.. looking 4ward 2 so many tings.. hahah

an yeah.. mayb tt's wat's getting 2 me..

lying an slacking wit sulyn.. =)

doing crazy stuff wit d gang.. hmmm haiz*

picking up my drums again..

aft 2dae i kinda found out wat's getting 2 me..

mayb it's not d exams.. but actaully fatigue.. i'm juz so tired.. wanna juz end it.. so i cn move on.. i hope.. i'm scared of d outcome.. but wth.. i've come so far.. cun do aniting abt tt now can i?

haiz* juz hope we do ok.. =)

dear.. mayb 2dae i felt weird not cuz of aniting.. but of d fact tt it wuz so close yet so far.. an i juzz felt lyk.. this sense of overwhelming anticipation.. tt is pressing on me so much..

sorrie i made u worry.. but yeah.. =) gotta juz let it sink in rite?

realli looking forward 2 d end.. =) so so much..

then we'll hav all d time in d world rite? 4 mths at least.. hahahaha.. =P

but yeah.. til then.. whee! we rock..

thnx 4 being there when i needed sulyn.. reali meant alot.. reali looking 4ward 2 d end of this wit u.. *wink* so much planned rite dear? missing u now.. alot..

an 4 all those hu msged me.. thnx alot.. i'm fine! i guess.. ahahah =P

well. gotta stop now.. so..

more later! hehe =P

to the gecko in my room

ok.. i noe u wun understand aniting i sae.. much less read a blog tt is speeaking 2 u.. but i cun very well speak gecko (cluck cluck cluck) and u understand neither english, chinese or d guttural noises i try 2 pass offas german or d hi pitched squeaks tt make tt is supposed 2 pas of as thai.. so yeah.. i'll juz stick 2 wat i noe..

U IDIOT!
I TRY AN RELEASE U TO THE WILD AND U SPIT IN MY FACE AN RUN AWAY!

ok so i chased u wit a bottle an crashing lyk a whale in a kiddy pool.. but tt's still no reason 2 do tt..
i do respect d fact tt u cn do weird acrobatics while sticking 2 d wall.. but i juz hope u understand tt i dun reali lyk animals crawling abt my room..

let me get this straight.. there's no food in my room tt i noe of.. so i dun wanna hav 2 find ur body in full rigor mortis.. cuz tt's juz gross..

SO I BEG U! GET OUT! there r plenty of small bugs tt u love outside my room..

tt being said.. i dun tink u wld move so i propose a truce..

fine u cn stay.. till i catch u tt is.. but till then.. here r d conditions..

1. no rude surprises crawling over my leg or desk when i'm awake.
2. keep d mosquitoes out, or silverfish.. or ants..
3. it mite get cold at nite.. shld u wanna snuggle.. d otr warm body tt lies nearer the floor is warmer than mine is open.. i'm sure he'll love company.
4. shld u still wanna hang wit me.. do it when i'm aslp.. (see 1.)
5. on my pillow there cld b puddles of water at nite.. shld u b thirsty.. but DON'T enter the source of the water!
6. all otr openings shld b avoided as well.. esp d warm, dark but smelly 1 where my legs meet (for ur own gd)
7. rules does not apply 4 d lower lying warm body.
8. try 2 avoid being crushed.. dun wanna clean up ur innards.
   

din hit 10.. so guess tt cld b ez 2 remember..
i grudgingly sae,
Have A Nice Stay

(hell.. still better than having roaches rite?)
all d best in studying ppl!
*WINK* to my tokyo destroyer! hehe

yeah!!! got d pictures of d fantabulous shoes! ahahah aren't they juz awesome? hehe.. 1 yr prez frm Sulyn.. haha.. so uber glad we made it la..

these r totally a dream 2 wear la.. and look at.. haha.. an wat's more, there's onli 2 in singapore!! whoopie! hehe.. so yeah.. ogle away.. cuz tt's d most u're gonna get! hahaha


side view now.. hehe.. DVS! ltd ed imports! yeah! hahah

THNX BABE! lotsa love!

=)

*my tokyo destroyer*

yeah!!!!

ONE YEAR!!! ONE YEAR!!! WHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

IT'S FINALLY HERE!!!! 1 YEAR.. 365 DAES.. tt juz makes out 2 b many many moments.. many many minutes.. many many many many many many many GREAT times spent 2gether.. b it being physically together, on d fone, having weird msg convasations.. hahaha

done so much dis year.. ups an downs.. many many ups.. a few downs.. hahaha so tt makes it a constant upward surge.. hahaha in conclusion.. WE ROCK!!!!!

ate a great RICE TABLE dinner.. (thnx qin) hahaha still full.. still happy..

noe we've grown.. in all aspects..

here's 2 many many more great years together!

i remember evryting la.. hahaha

d utter bliss we both felt over msn when i 1st confessed our feelings..

d many mths of aniversaries..

d weird places we went..

late conversations on d fone abt evryting an nth at all..

i remember it all..




i love u Cheng Sulyn..

always an forever

there is a myth of a greek god making a criticism on man, pointing out a flaw, that it was not possible to look into the heart of a man.. to see his true thoughts and feelings, or his motivations.

i dunno y such tings happen.. call me idealistic..

but i juz belive.. some problems hav a single root..

there is an information theory tt goes abt war.. tt saes tt shld each party noe the capability an intent of either side.. no conflict wld take place.. it's juz either a lack of, or false information tt makes it problematic..

guess it can b applied..

yes existance is gray.. or muddy, or murky..

but i tend 2 belive in dogma..mayb it's my upbringing.. but i still belive in most cases. it's 4 a gd cause..

so yeah..

guess i still belive sum tings r still black an white..

cuz.. wat's easy is mostly never right..

an wat seems rite is oso not..

an sumtimes.. a possibly painful ting.. lyk braces.. cld end up being 4 d better.. if onli d small step forward can b made..

openess shld still b pursued..

i guess we can nv noe wat otrs r tinking.. but we cn noe ourselves.. an i guess.. dis time..

we noe ourselves

we're stronger than u tink..

we've gone thru a damn lot of shit in these 361 daes than most couples..

an tt makes us stronger 2..

y? cuz we're still standing..

i stand by my babe.. i stand by my love..

more firmly rooted than ever..

Joash & Sulyn 4 many more years 2 come!

happy early 1st yr babe..

=)

A Special World

A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong.
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If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

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Your Name

I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay.

hehe mushy 2dae.. hehe

1 yr coming soon babe! hehe *muacks*
we rock!

baq frm d brink.. prelims over! hahaha

hanging at sulyn's is now fuss free an guilt free.. hahaha 4 d moment

right babe? hehe ;-P

oh well.. hmmm juz got a cd tt i i find is worth paying 4..

so i guess i mite as well tok abt it.. haha

in my stressed state during d prelims.. i did wat most logical ppl wld do..

i turned holy an started praying.. more than ever..

so tt included listening 2 christian music 2 calm my nerves.. hahaha

so.. planetshakers is cool.. reali lyk d reflector album.. esp LIVE UP UR EYES! yeah rocks..

then there's my king wit nice songs as well.. haha

then there's hillsongs' God he reigns.. which has tell d word.. rocks.. plus salvation is here..

but dun get me started on sum of d tuneless pseudo-metal Delirious stuff.. hahaha

okok.. nvm nvm.. most impt.. with all d distortion-driven guitar an thumping bass.. it gets d same aft awhile rite? so God gives hope! theres....



nth EVER beats d naked guitar sounds.. no frills folk an gospel blues of JOC going baq to their roots.. conviction in their vocals NOT shown thru shouting.. nice strings.. crisp drums.. all working damn well la.. an most of all.. it's hymns their singing! all done it d purest of gospel style..

oh man.. i'm blown away..

u wan gd spirit-filled music? yeah.. u cn look 2wards d distorted guitar of straight out australian rock.. whick leaves u jumping an shouting..

or..

go 2 d root of the carismatic movement!

look 2 d Southen Baptists an feel d music.. an wit it d desire 2 juz get up an dance in d tt ultimate Presence..

indeed, our God is the Lord of the dance..

AMEN!

I'll Fly Away

Some glad morning, when this life is o'er
I'll fly away,
To a home on God's celestial shore
I'll fly away.

When the shadows of this life have gone
I'll fly away.
Like a bird from these prison walls, I'll fly
I'll fly away.

I'll fly away, O glory
I'll fly away
When I die, Hallelujah bye and bye,
I'll fly away.

O, how glad and happy when we meet,
I'll fly away.
No more cold iron shackles on my feet,
I'll fly away

I'll fly away, O Glory,
I'll fly away.
When I die Hallelujah bye and bye,
I'll fly away!

Just a few more weary days and then
I'll fly away.
To a land where joys shall never end
I'll fly away.

I'll fly away, O glory
I'll fly away
When I die, Hallelujah bye and bye,
I'll fly away...

I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Saying to me
"If you think you're lonely now"
Wait a minute
This is too deep (too deep)
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
"I only think of you"
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart

let's c.. how many essays will i write by the end of this prelims?

Hist:

1. ppr1: 4 essays(45 min each)
2. ppr2: 4 essays(45 min each)

Lit:

1. ppr1: 3 essays(1hr each)
2. ppr4: 2 essays(1.5 hr each)
3. ppr 8: 2 essays(2.5hr each)

Econs:

1. ppr3: 3 eassy(45 min each)
2. ppr2: 2 essay+-(1hr 45 min total)

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18 4 page plus essays!

oh well.. hahaha lyk..

many hand pains..

but okae la.. wun reali wanna dwell on tt..

so i move on.. hahah..

CARL'S JUNIOR DOUBLE WESTERN BACON!!!

damn tt shit is gd..

cun get a pic.. but 4 those who haven't tried it.. rox lyk damn man..

it makes d quarter pounder look lyk a cupcake..

it makes d big mac look lyk.. small..

it makes the Whopper look.. lyk.. damn small oso la!

mmmmmmmmm.. mmmmmmmmmm... (weird moaning noises)

2 large patties of REAL juicy beef..

2 strips of REAL PORK bacon...

CHEEEEESE!!

BBQ sauce..

an 3 onion rings!!!

freaking 8 inch diameter!!!

AHHHH damn hungry..

sure beats essays.. hahaha

hav fun ppl!

i've holed myself in my room so long tt i've grown used 2 silence..
an of the boomy sound tt my voice makes as in bounces round an round the cell of my own making..
till it finally gets tired an dies..

(no i'm not depressed, juz v v v sian)

realised my template makes my postings look utterly neat an quite beautiful..

thnx sulyn!

11 mths an still going strong yeah babe?

God bless us! hahah

*winks*

hey.. the systhesis finally lives up 2 it's name!! hahahahaha

systhesized platform has been approved.. yeah..

hope this works out 4 d best!

i reali hope.. an pray..

but yeah.. greatest church news i've heard in lyk super long la..

*whee*

ah!!!! i found something..

it's reali weird...

it's an orange..

wait..

no..

it's a butt..

no wait..

cun reali tell..

it's

IT'S A
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happy studying ppl! all d best!

=)

well.. i finally got d cam an took a few pics.. so.. here it is! d turtle!!! *wink*

whoopie! it's a es335! sum gibson copy.. but got it 4 $420, actually dad got it.. but yeah.. it's kinda cheap rite? supposed 2 cost lyk $600.. so yeah.. got hard case an stuff.. but tt's another matter.. hahaha

wat makes it so nice?? it's not d guitar shape itself.. it's......
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look! u cn c d wood grains!! ah!!!pardon my shadow.. but yeah!~ cool rite?

did i mention tt d sound an feel is exquisite? hahah reali my dream guitar.. 4 d moment at least. .ahahah now.. juz hav 2 figure out how 2 stop sucking.. hahaha

thus d temptations tt drag me away frm studying is complete..
*mixed feelings*

ARGH!!! I DUN CARE ABOUT NATIONAL INCOME!!! (nsc still sucks! stupid ass-kisser)

I DUN CARE ABOUT HOW FREAKING LENIN CAME 2 POWER WIT 'PiSS, BREAD AND LAND'!!

DID I MENTION TT I OSO DUN CARE THAT LOUIS XIV'S WIFE WAS A VERY HORNY BISEXUAL?

I DUN CARE ABOUT HOW POE IS A MASTER OF MONOMANIA!!!!

ARGH!!!! (actually i kinda lyk lit)

but

ARGH!!!!! HATE STUDYING MAN.. DOING 3 ESSAYS A WK AIN'T NOT FUN!!

sian.. but prelims coming in lyk 19 daes? an A's soon after..

suck ass man.. so guess i still gotta do it.. much 2 my pain..

so oh well. trudging on i guess.. hahah but yeah..

i'm hungry.. reali happy wit d choc i got 2dae(thnx sulyn!) american dollar bill.. had 2 rush thru it as it wuz melting tho.. but wth.. nice milk choc.. hmmmm *quivers in joy*

still blogging.. i wan d white squire bullet strat.. it's cheap an white.. haha 250 ain't much rite?

more no link thing of d wk.. i've been introduced to d great temptation tt is:



sumhow killing demons wit spells an a big axe, an a pet scopion whichshoots stings out of it's ass is 10k times more appealing than d flagrant sex in 'The Country Wife'.. but then again.. it's expected i guess.. hahahah

happy mugging exam ppl!

2 d rest! curse u!!!! ppl lyk.. ian, phoebe, joel, marc, uni students, lower sec students, jc yr 1s.. poly slackers, an all those hu dun hav 2 do much work.. argh!!!! i will dance on the dae u hav exams.. an make it rain lyk shit due 2 my bad dancing!

HAH!

argh!!! 1st time i got angry in a very long time!!!! at it's all cuz of YOU!!!!!

armpit ng sw_ _ ch_ ( wanna buy a vowel?)

nsc

all these juz in case ppl misunderstand hu i'm toking abt.. so unless ur names sounds lyk 'CWEE SHU'. disregard my ramblings, or at least juz dun take offence.. cuz if u do.. then u're juz oversensitive..

i'm hopping mad! (lyk a frog)

i'm bloated wit rage! (lyk the blueberry ger in charlie an d choc factory)

i'm so angry my hair became darker! ( lyk ian)

i'm so infuriated tt potential irritants shld shrink away lyk imps! (lyk phoebe)

i'm so pissed i'm pale! (lyk yixuan)

argh!!! in class so okae.. turn ard then stick a rash covered finger into my back y dun u.. eeeee so gross.. but ya!!! argh..

damn lost it.. now i'm juz alright.. stupid.. if sum1, juz sum1 reads this.. then 2 BAD! c if i care!

not lyk i haven't done ur work.. juz dun pass up on time.. hrmp..

watever result i get.. IT'S NO THNX 2 U!!!! i'm working! but i wun b stupid enuf 2 screw my results juz cuz i dun lyk u.. but.. hmmm expect me 2 luff more in ur class now.. AT U!!!!

MUAHAHAAHHA

feel so much beta now.. hahha =P

on a brighter note.. 10 mths juz passed on national day..

for d big national secret, go HERE!

hehe *winks* =)

this post is dedicated to my baby cheng sulyn

hey baby.. juz wanna sae.. i'm sorry.. not perfect yet..

but yeah.. i m trying.. trying 2 make tings beta.. trying 2 get used 2 eating wit ur family.. tryin 2 balance evryting in my life.. an i cn sae.. I TOTALLY ENJOY IT!

i admit.. sum tings cun change.. but yeah dear.. evrydae.. it's my goal 2 make u feel more an more loved.. more an more focused on.. more an more happy..

i love u my darling.. an i'm not afraid 2 sae it out loud..

I LOVE U!

hahaha thnx 4 evryting.. all d time we spend.. an i wanna thank u in advance 4 all d times we're gonna spend.. alwaes.. i love u..

evryting i do 4 u i enjoy.. tings tt i dun reali enjoy at 1st.. r starting 2 grow on me.. hahha

tings tt i'm not so gd at.. i try 2 get beta.. an i tink i'm improving.. hehe.. but yeah..

dis post is dedicated to you..

you who:

1. means the world to me
2. taught me what it is 2 truely love a person
3. is the most beautiful person
4. i wan to shrink an keep in my pocket so i can spend every moment with
5. i would give everyting for
6. i wan to marry
7. i actually plan to marry
8. makes d biggest problem seem alright
9. 's company i enjoy the most ( an hope it's d same ;P)
10. i constantly wanna improve myself for
    
11. is CHENG SULYN (nuff said)

so yeah dear.. i noe we'll last long.. i juz noe it.. an i'll work towards it as well..

i promise.

love you wit all my heart baby.

i only want to be the man, who'd give you everyting i can,
everyday an every night, loving you for all my life
i don't want to change the world,
as long as you're my girl,
it's more than enough

wahahahah japs rock! manga iz gud.. but engrish not sooo.. ahhahhaahah

9 mths 9 mths 9 mths

WHOO WHOO!!!!

9 mths 9 mths 9 mths 9 mths

WHOO WHOO!!

hahahah super happy la.. it's 3/4 of a yr la..whoopie!

still madly in love.. still super excited 2 c u.. hahah

thnx 4 evryting la..

CHENG SULYN!

U ROCK!

love u 2 bits and powder!!

new blog skin! hahaha totally cun claim credit 4 it la..

CHENG SULYN!!!

LOVE U SO MUCH LA!!!

*winks*

thnx so much 4 dis.. altho i guess u wun let me do d same 4 u.. hahaha scared i screw up ur 1.. hahah but thnx dear! u hav chosen d perfect blogskin lor.. lyk.. AIE!!!!

so excited.. =P

hey... juz wanted 2 post this.. SULYN! u cn have a new job! hahaha my babe here juz made a $10 buck haircut look lyk a $18 buck salon style.. hahaha

ROCK ON!

love ya to bits!

hehe

face abit druggie lyk la.. but wth.. hair nice.. hahahaha

*winks*

yeah! i is baq!! hahahaah ppl start tagging! hahahah

oh well.. summer is kicking in in singapore.. getting damn hot an shit.. it's d mid yrs! an summer season is in! hahah d JOASH fashion line dis for the monsoon/summer 2005 is......... FITTING CLOTHES! no more shirts 2 sizes 2 big, wit d sleeves hanging at my elbow, in comes fitting t shirts and mayb a few polos.. evry1 shld hav a few sets of polos in different colours.. hahah juz watch it when u wear fitting shirts, make sure u hav lycra in them.. hahah got a shirt tt makes a crack sound whenever i pull my arms forward. hahahah sucks man gotta lose tt belly tho..

haha there's alwaes a reason for u to change ur style of dressing.. simply bcuz.. it looks beta!!! tink i sound damn gay la.. but yeah.. hahaha so much i wanna buy.. but prob gonna b juz another of my pipe dreams.. hahah

oh well.. i admit.. i've made sum realli bad choices in my dressing b4.. trust me.. sum were weird.. and sum were juz utterly ugly. but as in the case of all the other aspects of my life..

i'm not afraid to admit it..

yes i've made mistakes.. sum were ur own choices.. lyk.. my hair last yr.. hahaha sulyn wld puke if i told her i wanted to grow it long again.. 'cum on baby.. it cun b tt bad rite?' i ask.. 'YES IT IS U IDIOT!!' then she wld proceed to mock me.. hahahaha.. cracks me up..

so yeah.. i changed tt part of my life.. cuz.. it wuz d beta choice! haha

but sumtimes in life.. it ain't totally ur fault.. as in yeah.. u looked ugly.. but then.. mayb ur parents, or ur frens may hav influenced u 2 do it.. mayb wear tt heart-spotted tunic 4 church.. so.. tt means.. 2 parties were at fault! haha

so.. life is all abt change.. mayb u need 2 change parts of urself 2 look an mayb feel beta.. mayb when u change it.. u wun look weird and make ur frens ard u look weird.. so yeah.. benefits wld hav an multiplier effect.. hahaha =P

mayb 4 so-called 'fashion pros'.. it may b a time 2 admit tt u had a part 2 play in making ur fren look ugly as well.. cuz i'm sure..

sumtimes we never ever see into our own faults.. no matter how smart we tink we r..

!!!! hehehe!!! 

hahahahaha wat the!!!!!! =P 

3rd Eye Blind

Deep Inside Of You

When we met light was shed
Thoughts free flow you said you've got something
Deep inside of you
A wind chime voice sounds, sway of your hips round rings true
Echoes deep inside of you
These secret garden beams
Changed my life so it seems
Fall breeze blows outside, I don't break stride
Thoughts so warm, and they go
Deep inside of you, of you

Oh yeah
And I never felt alone
Alright, alone... alone
Till I met you

Friends say I've changed, I don't listen cause I live to be
Deep inside of you
Slide of her dress, Shouts in darkness
I'm so alive
I'm deep inside of you
You said boy made girl feel good
But still
Deep inside, still

I never felt alone
Till I met you
And I'm alright on my own 
And then I met you 
And I'd know what to do if I just knew what’s coming

I would change myself if I could 
I'd walk with my people if I could find them,
and I’d say that I'm sorry to you
I'm sorry to you
And I don't wanna call you,
but then I wanna call you cause I don't wanna crush you
but I feel like crushing you and it's true
I took for granted you were with me
I breathe by your looks and you look right through me
But we were broke and didn't know
And we were broke and didn't know
And we were broke and didn't know
And we were broke and didn't know
Right... oh, what's right?

Something's gone you withdraw and I'm not strong like before
I was
Deep inside of you
I can go nowhere
I burn candles and stare at a ghost
Deep inside of you
And some great need in me
Starts to bleed
I've lost myself, there's nothing left, it's all gone 
Deep inside of you 
Deep inside of you, mmm
Deep inside of you



i lyk dis song.. old.. but not bad.. hahaha  *winks*
there.. updated.. haha =P

i'm baq~~~ hahaha

it's been awhile yeah? =P
guess dis will b my 1st writing post in a long long long time.. hahaah

but yeah.. 1st i wanna start by thanking sum ppl..

kudos to my bandmates 4 d songfest auditions: SULYN *winks*, matthew, hong peng, jerome and yuqin(most happening manager)! reali enjoy playing wit u guys.. let's show those posers wat real talent is yeah? haha.. we're all gd..

kudos to d ppl hu helped me in my 1st ever worship leading.. all my bandmates.. made my fear lyk.. clam.. abit.. but yeah.. reali meant alot.. felt d presence of God.. ben, melvin, ian, isabel, jian hao, ben tan.. yeah.. thnx loads for serving wit me.. sorrie if u guys had 2 skip lunch or sumting..

kudos to... my cell grp.. u guys r great!

kudos to.. the thai mission trip team.. u guys did great for God!!

oh well.. i'll thank more when i remember yeah? haha not tt i dun hold d otrs in higher, or lower regard.. =)

haha juz tinking abt sum stuff nowadays.. turning 18 in abt a month, sum1 is turning 18 on wed.. =P hehe.. ;P hahaha but yeah.. juz tinking abt wat age brings..

a few yrs baq, i saw myself as sum psuedo-revolutionary; 'screw singapore!' 'our lives here suck ass man!' 'damn the paper chase!' 'it's a shitty world out there!' '&$*&%*%&^#%^^#*$#(@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!' (dunno where tt came from)

but yeah.. stuff on tv an politically-themed movies cn do tt 2 u.. i got the shirts, got the red bk.. listened to the music.. got quotes.. hahaha.. still have yet 2 catch 'the motorcycle dairies' hehe

then i realised, wat i wuz doing, which wuz prob wat most kids my age were doing, wuz juz making a whole lot of useless noise, cuz all we did wuz curse an swear in the air, and do nth much abt it.. hmmmm yeah.. tt wuz lyk.. in.. i wuz different, juz lyk evry1 else..

but i guess, as u grow older.. mayb getting wise is juz a nice wae of saying getting disillusioned.. u find tt Ecclesiastes 1:2-11 reali hits home.. an i found out tt i had 2 eat alot of d words tt i spoke.. damn..

most times, we critisize juz 4 the sake of being heard, juz so tt we can hope 2 leave a mark on the minds of the ppl tt we r near, so tt we will b remembered an hopefully, respected.. i guess we all need tt in life sumtimes.. haha..

i guess, tok is cheap, action is a totally different matter.. i'll admit 2 tt..

so.. guess we shld all juz tok less now.. cuz we cn v seldom deliver on wat we proclaim, if we go totally against it 2 start wit.. but yeah..

so yeah.. poverty in the world? 55 million ppl living wit less than US$1 a day? i know all abt tt.. i'll start preaching when i start actually doing sumting abt it..

in the meantime.. gotta get baq 2 preparing a gift.. *winks* finishing touches man! hehe

God bless u guys..


*put ur arms ard me, wat u feel is wat u r an wat u r is beautiful*

hmmmm in sappy mood now.. hahaa.. juz kinda tinking la.. an sum parts does sae wat i wanna sae.. so yeah.. hahaha.. *many winks*

*fave song of a highly favoured person*

=)

From This Moment

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you
is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

hmmmm in sappy mood now.. hahaa.. juz kinda tinking la.. an sum parts does sae wat i wanna sae.. so yeah.. hahaha.. *many winks*

*fave song of a highly favoured person*

=)

From This Moment

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you
is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

Which Naruto Character are You?
Test by http://www.naruto-kun.com

yeah! hahhaha..

=P 

juz got d goo goo doll's dizzy up the girl an one song is great.. ahahahshall post it here.. it's 4 sum1 as well.. hahaha *winks*

Slide

Could you whisper in my ear

The things you wanna feel

I'll give you anything

To feel it comin'



Do you wake up on your own

And wonder where you are

You live with all your faults



Chorus:

I wanna wake up where you are

I won't say anything at all

So why don't you slide



Yeah we're gonna let it slide



Don't you love the life you killed

The priest is on the phone

Your father hit the wall

Your ma disowned you



Don't suppose I'll ever know

What it means to be a man

If there's something I can't change

I'll live around it



Chorus



And I'll do anything you ever

Dreamed to be complete

Little pieces of the nothing that fall

Oh S_____, put your arms around me

What you feel is what you are

And what you are is beautiful

Oh S_____, do you wanna get married

Or run away



And I'll do anything you ever

Dreamed to be complete

Little pieces of the nothing that fall

Oh S_____, put your arms around me

What you feel is what you are

And what you are is beautiful

Oh S_____ do you wanna get married

Or run away



Chorus



And I'll do anything you ever

Dreamed to be complete

Little pieces of the nothing that fall



And I'll do anything you ever

Dreamed to be complete

Little pieces of the nothing that fall



Oh S_____, why dont you slide in to my room

just slide into my room

and we'll run away run away

sum unneeded parts i blanked off.. ahhaahah
but added sum otr stuff.. =P

~to you~ (can't wait 4 wed)

i'm baqq!!! hahaahah hey ppl.. yeah.. inoe it's been long.. but i've juz hadn't found the time to blog.. ahha laziness mostly.. plus otr tings on my mind.. *wink wink* hehehehe

but yeah.. wuz juz wondering.. hmmm juz wanna sae.. tings are turning out reali great.. life's quite gd.. got into naruto.. haha tring 2 start studying.. in sch film society.. haah but okae la.. nuff said.. hahaha.. life's GOOD!

wuz juz tinking.. sumtimes u dive into sumting.. not knowing what to expect, and it turns out good.. u b happy for a little bit, with the occasional ups and downs. but yeah.. it's mostly high.. so yeah.. all's nice.. then when u go on for awhile.. u wonder if u'll get tired, u dun reali noe if u cn trust urself an stuff.. but yeah.. hmmm then u open up an tok abt it.. an in doing so.. u feel so relived, so refreshed, reinvigorated, that u dunno wat else to sae but, "Damn i'm %&^#&$*%*#$^$ ESTATIC!" hahaha yeah.. hahahaah

thnx for listening to me.. reali meant alot.. so much.. *wink wink*

Haiz* *satisfied sigh*

I'm Loving It!

hahaha

but yeah.. on to otr seemingly mundane stuff.. well not reali..

jan 14th has past!!! ahha it's all gd.. wuz a great gig.. wan more.. sumting more challenging..

thnx for all hu came down, it wuzn't a perfect gig, but yeah.. i'll improve.. =) an yes.. i wun reali try singing so much nxt time.. ahahahah =P