in the 1st day of field camp.. i wore gloves.

those half finger kinds tt linger tightly over..

gave me a feeling tt someone was holding my hands all d time..

protectiing me from the muck.


it rained..


hard.

the gloves got wet.


an then i could not wear them animore.

damn i miss u babe.. i reali reali reali do..

i love u cheng sulyn..

with all of my heart..

as i go thru everything..

it's so bloody shitty..

i miss u so damn much babe..

hope 2 see you soon..

i love you.

hey...


baq out an in again....



so weird.. sounds so wrong..

but haiz*
when i go in.. friday is field camp..

gonna b so sian..

half excited.. half dread..

i dun wanna book in.. hahaha wish i had all d time in d world again..

but i guess.. time has 2 move on

tings have 2 change.. we have 2 do tings we dun wanna do..
gonna pick up my socks soon.. an wear my uniform again..

wit tears in my eyes..

i carry wit me in my heart
you inside
to look 2 when i feel lonely
to return 2 ur room when i need 2

i walk wit heavy steps,
cuz it's d tension
of me being pulled
away from you.

the string never snaps,
time clicks on,
an on.

on again.

i hate this life
of desires detained

i miss you badly.


God, i miss her so much..
it hurts so much..
but i noe u have us both in ur hand..
help me..
help her..
help us..

amen.