hmmmm chrsitmas 2dae! hmmm merry an blessed christmas! 2 one an all..

it's lyk totally great dis yr la.. nice time spent wit frens.. esp my girlfren sulyn.. not 2 wit sd clique.. an also.. catching up wit chua.. totally look 4ward 2 hanging out again dude..

onli downer.. d passing of my granduncle..

dis wuz not unexpected.. but still feels sad.. thankful he is now wit God..

haha on 2 a serious matter.. this holiday mood has got me in a reflective mood..

i hav grown.. in all facets during this time..

gone r the daes by which my admittedly foolish self still resided in me.. when i wuz 16.. or even in early jc 1.. tings hav changed.. in this few yrs.. i've seen more than i hav seen.. i'm done more than i hav ever done..

i experienced regreat at foolish decisions.. an i hav seen many types of ppl.. frm totally cool ppl.. whom i hav come 2 respect.. 4 various reasons.. an also.. ppl hu noe nth yet shoot their mouths off.. wa.. tt 1.. damn irritating..

hahah dis period of time.. d biggest downer is d fact tt my eyes hav opened.. 2 c the BIGGEST ever kind of fake ppl ard me.. who try 2 live up an image of themselves.. because tt's all they hav.. cuz tt's all they r..

insecure..

ppl hu tok so much.. cuz tt's all they can do.. never inward looking...

lyk crabs in a bucket tt pull 1 down tt tries 2 escape..

hahah well.. tt's life 4 u then.. guess d daes by which we make frens or all kinds of relationships r done juz 4 itself.. motives come in.. but i guess.. tings grow..

hahah i guess.. i admit.. if i were 2 tok 2 my 16 yr old self.. who juz finished o's an waiting 4 his results.. i mite sae..

'u tink u noe alot joash.. but guess wat, U NOE NTH! cuz u haven't seen enuf 2 make judgements..'

juz lyk i cun tell my post-army frens tt i noe army.. y? cuz i haven't gone thru it yet now hav i? hahah all i hav a set sterotypes tt i tink r real.. as real is i tot my dad wuz a superhero when i wuz 5..

'make me fly daddy!'

hahah

sounds so weird now rite?

ahahahah

u may get angry over a snakebite.. an then tink u can write a bk abt how 2 handle snakes.. but tink abt it.. snakes onli bite in defence.. an also.. 1 snake bite does not make u a snake expert.. exp mayb at hurting snakes an then blaming them.. cuz d bite wuz due a handling screwup..

i guess.. learning is sumting tt is alwaes supposed 2 happen..

i used 2 tink i wuz an extrovert.. but as time changed.. i'm now kinda introveted..

hahah mayb it's juz me learning when 2 keep my mouth shut.. cuz seriously.. i dun tink i m tt terrible at starting an holding on 2 conversations.. hahah but i noe sumtimes.. toking 2 much juz shows how foolish i m..

an also learning 2 look ahead. instead of tinking for myself.. (it's still nice tho.. hahahahaah =P)

hahah hmmm in ani conflict.. there r 2 sides.. juz lyk most proper arts students are supposed to learn in history..

all hav their sides..

an mistakes..

an most actions r merely reactions..

hahah..

anw

damn.. gift exchange wit family onli on new yrs dae..

mite not hav much cash till then..

but it will come..

dis christmas..

i found out at least a little bit.. wat it means 2 love..

not much! but a peek..

dear! 2nd christmas..

onli abt damn alot more tt we're gonna spend 2gether rite?

hahaha..

*muacks*

(we're oni getting closer rite?)

nxt pt:

thnx 4 all d gifts.. sorrie i'm broke.. but yeah.. it's reali touching..

2 all my brothers an sisters in christ.. my clique mates.. 4 brothers an 1 girlfren.. =)

an old frens 4 juz being ard..

happy holidaes..