hmmm now tt i'm more or less settled.. i guess i'll write down wat happened yesterdae.. in d morening.. yuqin came over, so we lyk go down 2gether lor.. so not peiseh.. so lyk he came at abt 1130 liddat.. then we so sian.. started cooking.. made ommelette wit luncheon meat an cheese.. looked lyk crap but tasted okae.. had soup 2.. most amazing meal i ever made.. wahahaha hu sae's guys cun cook? hahahahaha

played winning 11 b4 leaving 4 sch.. we were kinda lyk defeated in tone.. tot we all die liddat.. but got juay's msn.. said mr wong sae express did okae.. so i felt beta.. more peace lor.. dunno peace or Peace.. hahaha in d end left d hse late.. had 2 take cab..

i onli felt scare as we walked into d sch.. in d hall okae.. d express went crazy when sng siad we did gd.. so much 4 hopeless batch ah.. wahahahah.. my dad called me 2ce as she wuz toking.. guess he wuz more excited then me lor.. hahahah

d gers went 1st. all luff an cry wit joy.. then d guys oso.. wah lau.. damn happy sia.. so many ppl called me.. so confused.. tots swirling in my head.. so many ppl i wanted 2 tell.. but lyk my head cld not register..

so happy.. so thankful.. still dun tink i deserve it..

cell wuz fun oso.. wahaha

2 all taking o's soon.. DUN WORK 2 HARD.. STRESS URSELF OUT ONLI!! =P hee* seriously

now fiddling wit my new panasonic x70.. so cool.. so nice 2 play.. wahahah..

IT'S ALL ABOUT JESUS

IT'S ALL ABOUT JESUS
IT'S ALL ABOUT THE WAY HE CHANGED OUR LIVES
IT'S ALL ABOUT JESUS
THE POWER OF HIS BLOOD CAN'T BE DENIED
IT'S ALL ABOUT JESUS
IT'S ALL ABOUT THE COVENANT HE MADE
IT'S ALL ABOUT JESUS
VICTORIOUS HE ROSE UP FROM THE GRAVE
WE LIFT OUR HEARTS TO HIM
HE IS THE REASON THAT WE SING

HALLELUJAH, HALLELUJAH, HALLELUJAH
WE PRAISE YOUR NAME
HALLELUJAH, HALLELUJAH, HALLELUJAH
WE PRAISE YOUR NAME

11pts!! hu else 2 thank but God?? so many ppl called.. called so many ppl.. haiz* still cun belive it.. screw @*$&#^@$*&$%(*@^(*@$^%

i write dis 2dae as i stand on d edge of a veil.. a veil which is thick enuf tt i cannot tell 4 sure wat is beyond it.. but d shadows of wat lies ahead cn be seen.. i daren't speak of wat i tink i c.. lest i b disappointed an disheartened.. a veil tt i can onli step close 2 at 2.3o pm tml.. an past it abt abt 3pm.. and aft d veil will turn 2 an iron gate.. clamped shut.. forcing me 2 onli move forward.. 2 d future i made.. doubts swirl in my mind.. but i noe tt dis is wat God has planned 4 me.. many hav thread where i hav been..i see their footprints.. i smell their fear.. i taste their happiness.. but it is stale wit age.. wine tt has gone sour.. i stop 2 wonder.. will tt cup b handed 2 me? assumptions mayb fatal.. i hold my tongue.. stick a spanner in d gears of my mind.. God, here's my life.. take it an do watever u wan.. i cun fight animore.. i throw my life up 2 u..

oh well.. baq 2 my life.. tml's d dae.. but 2dae has it's own stupid tings.. went running.. dammit i'm not fit.. yuqin an terence run until so fun.. i in pain there.. wa lau.. irritating.. 4.3.. gues it's okae.. i'll do it again if there's a chance.. quite shoik aft tt.. but now whole body aching.. *grumbles* thnx terence.. pace us 2 finish in abt 30 min.. respect respect..

later went lunch wit anna an petrina.. not v happy 2 spend so much at swensens tho.. gues i reali din hav much ting else 2 do.. so wth.. 20 buck got.. got 90c baq tho.. wahahahhaahahah... gd ting i still go sum cash left over.. so not so bad..it rox 2 save.. an 2 skip sch 4 3 daes.. wahahaha.. they later came my hse.. an i scared them wit fatal frame.. aft tt.. largely left them 2 themselves 2 play wit d com an ps while i stoned.. wish more ppl were there.. then reali more fun lor.. hahaha miz evry1..

now.. juz gotta pray.. and leave my tings 2 God.. hope i do okae.. i'll stop here.. i'll post my results here tml.. if i feel lyk it.. =P

hmmmm how much do big time politicians earn i wonder.. how much do u get 4 ur soul? how much 2 pawn wit d lives of a cty's citizens?

oh wel.. there goes tot of d dae.. mayb it's cuz afraid of running broke.. ehehehehehe.. oh well.. i'll start my ac of tings tt happened..

yest.. not a gd dae.. ask hp.. wallet got stolen.. long story.. dun wanna bring it up here.. at least i got 2 skip 2 lessons.. then sat in front of d office playing ngage an got caught by my teacher.. guess she wun b v happy now.. hahha.. feel reali bad 4 hp.. kinda got played out by our grp.. mayb i had i part 2 play.. i dunno.. d herd instinct cn hav disastrous results.. kinda lyk lemmings.. each following another.. all unsure.. finally.. self-destruction.. r we all lyk tt sum times? haiz* i dunno.. yar.. so altogether a sombre wae 2 end d dae.. tings got beta later i guess..

2dae.. okae lar.. passed d wrong bk 2 yi sheng.. carry so far then wrong.. damn.. sorrie man.. got test tml i oso screw up until liddat.. haiz* i skipped hist lecture cuz i din wanna do d test.. then in econs lecture we were playing bingo.. hahaha so funny.. i tink we got caught when i tink sam or linda went lyk 'bingo!' lyk loud whispering.. amazing how sound travels in d theater.. haha supposed 2 tok 2 teacher aft lecture.. but we ran off.. haaha then din go baq 4 hist.. heheheheheh... hui shi came baq 2 withdraw.. but ms lim din cum.. so in d end nv lor.. but i dun tink she'll cum baq animore.. hahaha she's v funny.. vertically challenged.. hahaha loud tho.. but funny.. wit her cam an evryting.. at least wit rare ppl lyk her.. class not so sian... i suddenly got a msg frm mich in gp lesson.. dunno y she suddenly send bible verse.. but it wuz v helpful lar.. not evrydae u get sent verses in 2 morning rite? hahaha thnx thnx

saw homerun 2dae.. again.. so sian.. at least a few of us were crapping in d show.. so it made it more bearable.. if not i die.. table cn lie on 1.. haiz* at least i not going sch tml.. cn slp.. hahahaha..

dunno wat's d freaking prob wit my dad.. evryting i do is wrong 2 him.. God b my witness.. he's not d open an liberal person he put's himself out 2 b.. a facade of d greatest degree.. haiz* an he gets angry when i dun trust him.. dammit.. haiz* watever.. damn irritated...

still worried abt my o's.. screw

argh.. so irritatedly bored.. so irritatedly deproving in my drums F*** F*** F***.. where cn i get prac? 2dae screwed up so freaking much.. wa lau.. sian.. y din i juz get rostered? then i dun mind playing an going 4 1st service.. haiz* reali need alot of prac.. nv had stage fight b4.. y did it cum? y now? last wk oso d same ting.. 4get evryting.. crap shit F***.. haiz* dunno lar.. joels saes i need 2 hear otr songs.. but 4 d love of God.. i need 2 play! i duno where i cn do it.. dunnoo when i cn.. haiz* mayb i juz need 2 gain confidence again.. screw lar.. all d praise songs i dunno how 2 do.. make so basic mistakes.. irritating.. cun belive myself.. sorrie all.. going thru bad phase now.. bloody hell.. mayb it's juz tt d songs i not sure how 2 play lar.. still sorrie.. i wuz d onli 1 2 make mistake 2dae.. not juz 1.. lyk 8 over lor.. i counted.. crap.. dammit.. esp sorrie 2dae's worship team.. i tink i'll juz play those songs till i get them perfect.. hmmmm yar.. i'll juz hav 2 stay behind in church more now an prac.. need 2 prac my fillins, my grooves.. evryting lar..

nxt wk.. not so bad.. i hope.. dis wk i mean.. haiz* o level results.. hope i cn juz get into a jc.. tpjc d best.. if not sajc take divinity lor.. juz need pray abt it.. need Peace.. cuz i cun change aniting.. or do aniting.. juz go there take d ppr lor.. read sumwhere tt Faith is lyk throwing ur life in d air an trusting God 2 put u where He noes best.. crazy as it sounds.. yar.. but God said,' My ways r higher then youy ways, and so r My Thoughts higher then your thoughts.' so.. oh well.. i'll juz hav 2 remember 2 pray.. i'll pray 4 evry1 i n remember oso k? hee*

Life's dream state: 2 b lyk a tree.. rooted firmly in God.. so i wun b shaken by life's shit.. and 2 bear fruit.. both d fruit of d spirit but oso fruit tt helps ppl.. 2 b a blessing 2 otrs..

i dunno y i'm writing dis down.. mayb i wuz getting arrogant in my drums.. tt's y i screwed up so much.. i dunno.. prob hav 2 get my focus baq lor..

p.s. getting installed on sundae.. whoo hoo!