wat is loneliness?
i guess it's tt weird feeling tt u get when u juz miss company. when 5 sec ago life seemed so hectic, and conversation so fluid. but soon aft it juz dies down into nothingness.

some ppl choose to attemp to jolt life back into the situation, to maybe make a phone call or sumting.. but mayb im a sadist, but i wanna sit this one out, in all it's gripping crushing darkness tt ebbs and flows ard me, to c wat it does to me, an mayb describe it.

like waiting till ur eyes adjust to the darknes of the night. seems tt darkness is something tt is pervading into my life more and more. but i dun fear it. it covers me, and hides the scary stuff from my eyes, which mayb a good ting.

i guess part of me feeling shitting is the fact tt i could be come doing beta tings wit my life then jus wasting my time eating mush witcool manes, i hate it here sometimes, esp when i'm alone, but it reali depends on my mood. i guess it gets worse when nitefalls, it's juz bad i guess.

weirdly, i can feel tt way on weekday aftnoons, esp when i'mat home alone. or anitime is good 2. mayb it' juz me feeling sian at being denies at wat i wanna do.

so i guess, mayb i can never be satisfied.

tinking leaves more qns than ans

writen on 13/7/06
8p.m. in Bravo Bunk


sian!!! booking in again!!!! still feels shitty!!!!! =P

missing evryting.. an worried abt d future. *haiz*

=)