argh.. so irritatedly bored.. so irritatedly deproving in my drums F*** F*** F***.. where cn i get prac? 2dae screwed up so freaking much.. wa lau.. sian.. y din i juz get rostered? then i dun mind playing an going 4 1st service.. haiz* reali need alot of prac.. nv had stage fight b4.. y did it cum? y now? last wk oso d same ting.. 4get evryting.. crap shit F***.. haiz* dunno lar.. joels saes i need 2 hear otr songs.. but 4 d love of God.. i need 2 play! i duno where i cn do it.. dunnoo when i cn.. haiz* mayb i juz need 2 gain confidence again.. screw lar.. all d praise songs i dunno how 2 do.. make so basic mistakes.. irritating.. cun belive myself.. sorrie all.. going thru bad phase now.. bloody hell.. mayb it's juz tt d songs i not sure how 2 play lar.. still sorrie.. i wuz d onli 1 2 make mistake 2dae.. not juz 1.. lyk 8 over lor.. i counted.. crap.. dammit.. esp sorrie 2dae's worship team.. i tink i'll juz play those songs till i get them perfect.. hmmmm yar.. i'll juz hav 2 stay behind in church more now an prac.. need 2 prac my fillins, my grooves.. evryting lar..

nxt wk.. not so bad.. i hope.. dis wk i mean.. haiz* o level results.. hope i cn juz get into a jc.. tpjc d best.. if not sajc take divinity lor.. juz need pray abt it.. need Peace.. cuz i cun change aniting.. or do aniting.. juz go there take d ppr lor.. read sumwhere tt Faith is lyk throwing ur life in d air an trusting God 2 put u where He noes best.. crazy as it sounds.. yar.. but God said,' My ways r higher then youy ways, and so r My Thoughts higher then your thoughts.' so.. oh well.. i'll juz hav 2 remember 2 pray.. i'll pray 4 evry1 i n remember oso k? hee*

Life's dream state: 2 b lyk a tree.. rooted firmly in God.. so i wun b shaken by life's shit.. and 2 bear fruit.. both d fruit of d spirit but oso fruit tt helps ppl.. 2 b a blessing 2 otrs..

i dunno y i'm writing dis down.. mayb i wuz getting arrogant in my drums.. tt's y i screwed up so much.. i dunno.. prob hav 2 get my focus baq lor..

p.s. getting installed on sundae.. whoo hoo!