oh man.. so totally freaked now.. i dunno.. sum ppl juz totally freak me out.. as in totally.. ouch.. eeeeeee... so weird.. so pushy... m stupified.. hahahahha oh well.. at least now i'm kinda feeling beta.. v tired tho.. sch daes r draggy.. an 10 wks 2 promos.. wth.. retaining is now an open option.. or i cld juz start studying now.. try lar.. few tings on my mind now.. an BAYBEATS is 1 of them! hhahahahah yeah.. cool.. hope i get free drinks frm d guys..

playing drums 4 service wuz not so bad.. at least d ppl i worked wit wuz not bad.. smooth an nice.. ideas coming 2 me so fast.. hahah thnx ian! u is pro creative boy.. hahaha.. Ian: man hu gifs ideas tt hit u on d head so hard tt make u go.. "i gotta do it!" yeah.. so yeah.. hahhaha hope tings turn out well..

tot abt tings.. an learnt.. y r we do blind tt when we as christians hav problems.. turn 2 evryting but God? lyk onli at d last min we go.. 'God, u gotta help me! U're MY ONLI HOPE!!!' crap man.. dun we all lyk do shit liddat?

the ninja has gone on a quest an learnt tt as humans, we all hav dis inert nature 2 alwaes b in control.. in evryting.. our lives.. our frens.. heck.. blogging is a sign of ppl wanting d outside world 2 view a painted pic of their life.. an we still buy into it.. y? isit IN 2 live in constant self-denial?

so much hopelessness.. so much blindness.. we noe abt it.. but do nth 2 stop it..

"things that always were, are mostly permitted to be left that way, without question or thought" - Joash's Theory of The Status Quo =P

the is nothing new under the sun

oh well..at least life is getting more fun 4 me.. thnx desmond! hahahaha wae cool.. aug 15.. yeah! hahahah plus tt ting in sch coming up.. but sch 1.. national dae.. hahaha sian..

"ooo how i love singapore so....." *pukes*

hahahahahahahahaahahahah

but i tink it'll b fun.. great 2 cum 2gether an actually jam again.. but yeah.. hahaha i get 2 play again on sundae! wae cool.. hahaah got d ppt up alreadi.. so not so bad.. hahha oh well.. hehee hope i'll b free on sat.. otr then going 2 church.. hmmmmm heheh it'll b so cool 2 hav a break at last.. hahah

whooo finally a longer blog.. haven't seen dis 1 4 awhile.. hahaha take care all!! i boast to sae i noe the best ppl in the world! =)

to all members of COGS.. if u haven't joined d yahoo group, here's how u cn do it now! hahaahah d link is here..




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yesh.. i'm sick.. damn hi fever.. haha.. 2 daes mc.. hmmmmm it's cold.. hahahahah not d 1st time i said dis.. hahaha

oh well on 2 more impt tings.. juz wanna sae tt i cun stay neutral in dis.. i've seen both sides an i've chosen where i stand.. no regrets.. cuz i wuz neutral b4.. an now.. oh well.. =P

juz wanna take dis time 2 thank all those hu allowed myself 2 open up 2 them an shared wit me.. u guys r wat keep me going in church.. hehe.. so touched.. wonder if i shld mention names.. wth.. here goes.. thnx goes out 2, my mom 4 showing me wat wuz impt.. eddie, ian, beatrice, pei zhi, ds lim, melvin.. 4 listening 2 me an giving me advice.. Joel.. moz happening bro.. ur strength an faith is an inspiration 2 me..

if there r ani otrs i 4got, i will add them another time.. hhaha brain getting fried.. hahha *away*

DID YOU FEEL THE MOUNTAINS TREMBLE

DID YOU FEEL THE MOUNTAINS TREMBLE
DID YOU HEAR THE OCEANS ROAR
WHEN THE LOST BEGAN TO SING OF
JESUS CHRIST THE RISEN ONE

DID YOU FEEL THE PEOPLE TREMBLE
DID YOU HEAR THE SINGERS ROAR
WHEN THE LOST BEGAN TO SING OF
JESUS CHRIST THE RISEN ONE

AND WE CAN SEE THAT GOD YOU'RE MOVING
A MIGHTY RIVER THROUGH THE NATION
AND YOUNG AND OLD WILL TURN TO JESUS
FLING WIDE YOU HEAVENLY GATES
PREPARE THE WAY OF THE RISEN LORD

OPEN UP THE DOORS AND LET THE MUSIC PLAY
LET THE STREETS RESOUND WITH SINGING
SONGS THAT BRING YOUR HOPE
SONGS THAT BRING YOUR JOY
DANCERS WHO DANCE UPON INJUSTICE

DID YOU FEEL THE DARKNESS TREMBLE
WHEN ALL THE SAINTS JOIN IN ONE SONG
AND ALL THE STREAMS FLOW AS ONE RIVER
TO WASH AWAY OUR BROKENNESS

AND WE CAN SEE THAT GOD YOU'RE MOVING
A TIME OF JUBILEE IS COMING
AND YOUNG AND OLD WILL TURN TO JESUS
FLING WIDE YOU HEAVENLY GATES
PREPARE THE WAY OF THE RISEN LORD

nth 2 sae.. so i'll put a song.. sum parts of it spoke 2 me 2.. so yeah.. cheap long blog.. heheh

was talking 2dae abt d problems facing me now.. an then i wuz asked.. 'change church lar!' i wuz lyk 'i cun do tt, i got responsibilities.. it's as much my church as ani1 else.. so y shld i or ani1 hu's wit me leave wit a bitter taste in our mouths?'

defenses aside, tt statement got me tinking.. i mean seriously.. y shld i stay? i mean.. worship? wae beta worship elsewhere.. training? argh.. aniwhere oso cn get 1.. service? i cn serve elsewhere.. (3rd place.. hehehehe) juz kidding.. more seriously.. 2 draw inspiration frm otr places, i stand here 2 sae..

i choose not 2 c y i shld leave, but i choose 2 c y i shld stay

God hold me 2 my word..

m i 2 leave an go find greener pastures evryting d going gets tough? wld i suddenly aft 10 yrs sae 2 myself.. where do i truly belong? m i 2 shake d dust off my feet evrytime a conflict arises? i cun do tt.. i reali cun.. utopia doesn't exist on earth.. so i guess no1 shld expect tt..

need strength.. not juz strength, but Strength.. i oso need Faith..

Lord i belive, but help me my unbelief

may may i be a gd steward of the One i serve.. may i nv pull out an lose my Faith.. may i nv shun away frm giving care 2 those hu need it.. an may i, if the Lord permits, be an instrument of change..

ALL THAT I AM

ALL THAT I AM
ALL THAT I HAVE
I LAY THEM DOWN BEFORE YOU O LORD
ALL MY REGRETS
ALL MY ACCLAIM
THE JOY AND THE PAIN
I'M MAKING THEM YOURS

THINGS IN THE PAST, THINGS YET UNSEEN
WISHES AND DREAMS
THAT ARE YET TO COME TRUE
ALL OF MY HOPE, ALL OF MY PLANS
MY HEART AND MY HANDS
ARE LIFTED TO YOU

LORD I OFFER MY LIFE TO YOU
EVERYTHING I'VE BEEN THROUGH
USE IT FOR YOUR GLORY
LORD I OFFER MY DAYS TO YOU
LIFTING MY PRAISE TO YOU
AS A PLEASING SACRIFICE
LORD I OFFER YOU MY LIFE

WHAT CAN WE GIVE
THAT YOU HAVE NOT GIVEN
AND WHAT WE HAVE
THAT IS NOT ALREADY YOURS
ALL WE POSSESS ARE
THESE LIVES WE'RE LIVING
AND THAT'S WHAT WE GIVE TO YOU LORD

d youth banner is up! hahahah cn c frm d field.. so not so bad.. aahah.. took 8 hr plus of work.. hahaa wat the....

i've decided.. not going 2 play drums 4 service 4 awhile.. dun wanna put myself in arkward positions.. i got otr tings 2 take care off.. yeah.. my declaration is this.. hear me if u wld..

common test coming.. i dunno wat i'll do.. i'm kinda screwed.. oh well.. haiz*

yeah!

finally cn blog! hahahahahahahah been wanting 2 do dis 4 a damn long time.. but yeah i'm baq.. hahahahahaha *cheers and does jiggly dance*

been wanting 2 sae dis 4 a long time alreadi.. but.. i finally get d chance 2 sae it.. so here i go.. an if u tink i'm toking abt u.. u're WRONG.. an dun bother asking me 4 names.. yeah..

WAT BLIND AN SELFCENTERED IDIOTS WE R...

we cn whine an sob an cry all d hell we wan..

"hurt" man:
'oh woe is me.. i hav been hurt so.. i cun 4give.. it has happened 2 many times..'

but.. little does "hurt" man noe.. as his selfish an narrow mind cannot comprehend, all d hurt the HE has caused.. as he is onli caring 4 all d wrongs done 2 him.. in his stupidity.. he CHOOSES to block out all suggestion tt he may hav caused hurt.. even more than wat he feels.. 2 a multitude of ppl.. hu aft awhile will speak up.. an then absolution will come..

okae.. dis story may seem drama.. but i wuz juz tinking.. r we all liddat.. mayb not 2 d extend of wat i m writing.. but r we? is there ani hurt we hav put out unknowingly.. or r we in self denial?

EVERYONE RUNS, EVERYONE HIDES

oh well.. on 2 more lighthearted tings.. 2dae wuz funny.. looking 4ward 2 tml.. cuin get much studying done.. but wth.. i'm not reali bothered now.. i'll juz do as much as i cn.. hahaha I COMPLETED ONIMUSHA 3!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH! d endings kinda crap tho.. hahaha sulyn yuqin an yixuan an testify 2 tt.. haahahahah but wth! it's d 1st game i completed.. yeah.. now 4 splinter cell.. an i suck at gunbound 2.. dun c myself playing it v much in d long run.. msn is wae cooler.. hexic is still d best.. hahaahhaha

hist is painfull.. but econs tuition is great.. d teacher rox.. ahahah damn nice.. damn funny.. hahha damn gd.. i actually learnt stuff!! hahaha yeah!

gotta get my spiritual life baq on track.. cun let tings pull me down.. reali glad i cn sae tt i hav ppl 2 turn 2.. an hope i cn b of help when turned 2.. =)

i hav made a promise to change wat i can onli.. help where i can.. an not try an stick my head into tings tt

dis cds stuck on my cd player.. an dis song stuck out.. nth 2 sae now.. juz tt i'm stuck at hm wit my bks an onimusha 3! whahahah

wanna intro dis song in church.. hmmmm

tt's all 4 now.. haha


PlanetShakers
Rescue Me

WHEN I'M ALONE
THE WORLD IS SUCH A DIFFERENT PLACE
SOMETIMES IT'S HARD TO KEEP
THE SMILE UPON MY FACE
IT SEEMS LIKE I TRY SO HARD
AND STILL I LET YOU DOWN
IT'S TAKEN SO LONG BUT NOW THERE'S
ONE THING THAT I'VE FOUND

WHEN EVERYTHING STARTS CRASHING DOWN
WHEN ALL I KNOW FALLS TO THE GROUND
WHEN DARKNESS COMES AND I CAN'T SEE
YOU'RE ALWAYS THERE TO RESCUE ME

JUST WHEN I THINK
THAT I HAVE GOT IT FIGURED OUT
YOU OPEN MY EYES AND LET ME
SEE THAT THERE'S NO DOUBT
THAT YOU'VE GOT IT ALL
WITHIN THE POWER OF YOUR HAND
IT SEEMS LIKE THE MORE I KNOW
THE LESS I UNDERSTAND

WHEN EVERYTHING STARTS CRASHING DOWN
WHEN ALL I KNOW FALLS TO THE GROUND
WHEN DARKNESS COMES AND I CAN'T SEE
YOU'RE ALWAYS THERE TO RESCUE ME
WHEN ALL MY STRENGTH HAS TURNED TO FEAR
WHEN I WONDER IF YOU'RE NEAR
WHEN I DON'T KNOW HOW TO BREAK FREE
YOU'RE ALWAYS THERE TO RESCUE ME

I WONDER IF I'LL MAKE IT THROUGH THIS DARKEST NIGHT
I NEED TO KNOW YOUR STRENGTH IN ME
GONNA WIN THIS FIGHT
I'M REACHING OUT
WON'T YOU TAKE MY HAND
SHOW ME TO THE LIGHT
I KNOW YOU'RE BY MY SIDE

2004 is now the yr of conflict.. mayb gd will come of it.. but i dunno.. it's painful 2 hear.. haiz* i dunno lar.. sian sian sian.. dis is a time of momentous change..those tt i reali respect r leaving.. juz hope tt gd does cum out of it.. haiz* all of us r going 2 b affected by this 1 wae or another.. guess life does do such tings 2 u.. oh well.. i'll c where i cn help yeah?

btw d chalet wuz great.. God works fast.. i'm getting a testimony alreadi.. it wuz raining b4 d bbq.. then we tot 'oh no..' felt reali bad cuz we lyk i tot we were treating God lyk santa.. so i juz said a quick prayer by myself tt d rain wld clear.. but then later when we gathered an prayed.. d clouds cleared right away.. okae.. mayb not lyk get blown lar.. but then.. wa lau.. juz stop liddat.. then it held up till aft d bbq awhile.. made me reali lyk go 0_0 woah! God is PRO! hahahahah

i tink evryting went well there oso.. guess gd tings do cum out.. tink devotion went well.. i hope..

IAN U PLAY GD GUITAR! I'M GETTING U 2 PLAY EVRYTING I SONGLEAD NXT TIME!!!! yeah.. hahahaha seriously.. c i dun insult u all d time.. =)

more nxt time when i'm feeling less sleepy.. pass few daes has been a testament 2 d powers of Panadol Cold Relief tablets.. and more imptly, God's POWER.. =)

i hav finally gotten down to blogging again.. haha juz wanna thank evry1 hu played a part in making my bdae nice.. hehe mondae wuz a real funny dae.. exp 4 pw an tt stupid econs tuition in which we were juz stoning there looking at egghead foo.. seriously.. i mean.. wa lau.. cum my hse 1st ting he do is slip.. HAHAHAHAHAH.. damn funny..

d few otr daes till 2dae were kinda mundane.. exp 4 it raining down on us at d heats yesterdae.. oh well.. at least d body paint did not get a chance to smudge.. my new shoes were okae.. they got wet.. sumhow..

2dae wuz juz v v v v depressing.. i dunno.. but 2dae 4 d 1st time in awhile tt i seriously tot abt killing myself.. i dunno.. oh well.. prob juz a passing tot.. it's lyk i'm walking ard in a bad dream.. oh well.. life shld get beta.. there's still tings 2 look 4ward 2.. hehe

more on d 2 tings tt cracked me up is wk..

an eggy head monster fool found his wae thru into the Joash's Keep, the Duke of the Keep suspects it was an inside job, as he had heard of his friend calling down a "Tutor", and subsequently opened the gates of the Keep, and in doing so gave the monster free reign to destroy the fiefdom of Joash frm the inside out.
the duke's fears subsided quickly when the monster slipped as it was decending to the main hall, in doing so, proved to Joash an his advisors, much to their mirth, that the monster posed no real threat.
the monster then proceeded to ramble on for 2 hrs abt topics tt were not entirely wat were requested of it. as such it wuz to b d last time he wuz to b seen.

*egg-headed monsters with potruding eyes should not be teachers*

kinda ironic tt he said he hated teaching.. hahahah

4get i said 2 tings.. 1 mean ting is enuf.. dis is still cracking me up.. an it's lasting wae longer than mutabaruka did.. hahahahah

BELIEVE

I SAY ON SUNDAY HOW MUCH I WANT REVIVAL
BUT THEN ON MONDAY I CAN'T EVEN FIND MY BIBLE
WHERE'S THE POW'R
THE POW'R OF THE CROSS IN MY LIFE

I'M SICK OF PLAYING THE GAME OF RELIGION
I'M TIRED OF LOSING MY REASON FOR LIVING
WHERE'S THE POW'R
THE POW'R OF THE CROSS IN MY LIFE

I'M NOT CONTENT JUST TO WALK THROUGH MY LIFE
GIVIN' IN TO THE LIES
WALKIN' IN COMPROMISES NOW
WE CRY OUT AS A GENERATION THAT WAS LOST
BUT NOW IS FOUND IN THE POW'R OF THE CROSS

WE BELIEVE IN YOU
WE BELIEVE IN THE POW'R OF YOUR WORD
AND ITS TRUTH
WE BELIEVE IN YOU
SO WE LAY DOWN OUR CAUSE
THAT OUR CROSS MIGHT BE FOUND IN YOU

I'M NOT SATISFIED DOING IT MY OWN WAY
I'M NOT SATISFIED TO ‘DO CHURCH'
AND WALK AWAY, I'M NOT SATISFIED
THERE'S NO LOVE IN MY LIFE BUT YOU
I'M NOT SATISFIED LIVING IN YESTERDAY'S HOUR
I'M NOT SATISFIED TO HAVE THE FORM
BUT NOT THE POW'R, I'M NOT SATISFIED

LORD, I AM CRUCIFIED IN YOU

enough said. =)

y isit tt went u're this close 2 getting sumting u wan.. tings work 2gether 2 drag u back 2 d harsh floor and baq 2 ur mundane crappy life?

soaking wet.. dammit.. no chance 2 watch troy... ARGH!!!!!!! i reali wish i cn skip the rehersal.. of all d freaking times 2 pour down.. now i'm juz wet an irritated.. dammit dammit.. haiz*

an i tink i failed both my econs tests... screw.. at least there's a few tings left tt i cn look forward 2..

woah! d blogging ting has changed! looks kinda cooler now.. ahahahah study stress.. oh well.. it's not tt bad.. barely making it thru.. hope my essay does okae.. econs fac test nxt mon.. essay test on tues... wow.. ouch.. hhahhaa juz shows how much i need tuition now yeah?

at least a few tings keeping my faith up.. there's still d wkend and stuff.. so y worry? hehehe i'll juz hav 2 do as much as i can when i can.. and hope i dun screw up..

no song 2 put here 2dae leh.. =( so 2dae's terribly short.. hmmm haiz* oh well.. at least i din hav cca 2dae..

so freaking stoned.. juz came baq frm jamming at aljunite.. got d funny sponge 2 muffle d sound of the drums.. no cymbals yet tho.. ian's starting 2 bug me abt it alreadi.. away foul beast! get hence thee!! heheheeh

dis wk.. long daes were long.. tiring.. but few tings came ard an made up 4 evryting.. hahahah so i'm kinda feeling gd rite now.. hehe 1 ting tt's becoming my fave place 2 b at.. on a nice soft comfy sofa.. hahaha so nice an almost sleep..outside wakemeup an in church.. warm.. peaceful.. (-_-)ZzZzZZzzZZzzzzzzz... tings r looking up now.. hope i dun mess up my life lyk i'm prone 2 do.. haiz*

hot dae.. haiz*

jamming wuz gd.. i tink i improved witout practising.. it wuz real gd.. exp my ears were left kinda numb frm slamming d cymbals.. hahahaha

wish i had more free time.. lit's a killer 2 read.. 'the monk' is a horny book.. i lyk cats.. chocolates r sweet.. kway teow has lard.. a starfish as 5 arms.. circles r round.. yeah... *stoned*

u cn nv get enuf of dave matthews band.. =)

Where Are You Going?

Where are you going?
With your long face pulling down, don’t hide away.
Like an ocean, which you can’t see but you can,
Smell and the sound of waves crash down.

I am no Superman,
I have no reasons for you.
I am no hero, no; that’s for sure.
But I do know one thing,
Where you are, that's where I belong.
I do know where you go is where I wanna be.

Where are you going?
Where do you go?

Are you looking for answers?
To questions under the stars.
Well if along the way,
You are grow weary,
You can rest with me until a brighter day.
yeah ok.

I am no Superman,
I have no answers for you.
I am no hero, no; that's for sure.
But I do know one thing,
Where you are, that's where I belong,
I do know where you go is where I wanna be.

Where are you going?
Where do you go?

Where do you go?
Where are you going?

Where do you go?
I am no Superman,
I have no answers for you.
I am no hero, no; that's for sure.
But I do know one thing,
Where you are, that's where I belong
I do know where you go is where I wanna be.

Where are you going?
Where do you go?
And where are you going?
Where you must go.

when depressed an downcast, u cn hear sting an get this v weird an soothing feeling when u hear his songs( mayb i wuz sleepy).. but still d daes aren't being gd 2 me.. now even cca is taking up my fridaes.. screw..

Fields Of Gold

You'll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we walk in fields of gold

So she took her love
For to gaze awhile
Upon the fields of barley
In his arms she fell as her hair came down
Among the fields of gold

Will you stay with me, will you be my love
Among the fields of barley
You forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we lie in fields of gold

See the west wind move like a lover so
Upon the fields of barley
Feel her body rise when you kiss her mouth
Among the fields of gold

I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I've broken
But I swear in the days still left
We'll walk in fields of gold
We'll walk in fields of gold

Many years have passed since those summer days
Among the fields of barley
See the children run as the sun goes down
Among the fields of gold

You'll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You forget the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in fields of gold
When we walked in fields of gold
When we walked in fields of gold

a lot of tings bogging me down.. shan't speak 2 much abt it here..

1 ting tt's looking up tho.. got a drum set booked alreadi! yamaha.. now all i need 2 do is to go cymbal shopping.. here cums zildjian A customs!!!! hahaha.. plus 3rd place offers 30-45 min gigs on their 'chill night'.. so at least i got a few movitating factors 2 push me on..

jc life is still stress.. haiz* cun reali tink v well now.. oh well..

finch is playing in my head now.. hmmm last 2 line's out of place sumhow.. i is becoming music critic.. hehe

Three Simple Words

Open up my eyes, flooded with daylight
Another sleepless night turns color black and white
With all the things I've said
There is just regret, repeating in my head

Hands into a fist, static in my head
Now I'm sitting face to face with loneliness
What did I expect?
Did I see forever in you?

I never wanted it to hurt more than it should
I hope you're satisfied I never could

Time to close my eyes, forget about this mess
And try to fix this tragic loss of innocence
But how could I forget the things I have inside,
When everything is dead?

I never wanted it to hurt more than it should
I hope your satisfied, I never could

Can't you see, you left me here on my own
Give me one good reason why I should let go
With my hands around your neck,
Who will stop me now?

shit! no picture.. irritating

i wuz bored.. an d incubus pic looked okae.. hahaha i hear d drummer's gd.. yeah.. hmmm


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haiz* dis is reali getting out of hand.. while sum of us whine.. hav we stopped an tot abt ourselves? i dunno lar... dis has 2 stop sooner or later.. wth do we achive thru acting lyk assholes? dare we admit we were perfect?

wat makes us different frm outside ppl? if ppl actually look at us now.. wat will they tink? how can we sae.. "i serve Jesus" then screw ard and sae.. 'they started it!'?

you fuss over the speck of dust in your brother's eye, but fail 2 see the log in your own

dare we call ourselves christians now?

watever.. do wat the hell u wanna do.. but dun u guys bring down the name of COGS chi cong, or more importantly, the name of God, and the image that non-christians hav of us..