YES!!!!
finally got wat i wuz looking for.. seems kinda implusive.. but wth..
it sounds great..

i give u the new fave cymbal..

my 11 inch turkish splash

a less than $100 cymbal beats lousy zildjian

i m thus converted

well.. it's not done.. but it's getting there..
feel lyk i've gotten my mojo back..
lyk now..
this is all so new and exciting..

*WHOOOO*

hmmm there are times when u juz question urself.. wat r u doing wit urself?

where are u going?

what's this life for?

i feel unsatisfied..

but i guess it's juz a phase..

i'll get thru it..

=)

description of my life so far:

"i hate my life! i hate my job! and MOST of all, i hate YOU! and you... and you... and you... an you... ... ..."


no i'm not tt emo in person

fine i'll stop writing weird shit..

my life my life my life..

sex an violence.. erm...

A FEMALE PRAYING MANTIS BITES OF THE HEAD OF A MALE DURING INTERCOURSE TO FACILITATE EJACULATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!


*BISH*

*BLOOD GUSHES OUT*

*SQUIRT*

*YAY!*


one more utterly useless bit of information..


i should tell u abt my life..

i shouldn't bitch.. cuz ppl mite read an it's funnier when i tell u in person.. or when u hear my voice..

guns are phallic symbols.. and Singapore is moving towards shrinking our rifles.

"for better maneuverability in tight spots!"

wheee!!

playlist

let it speak to me.
pluck a line.
squeeze a circle in
to a square.
it fits.

cling on with fervor,
claimed linage.

process reengaged

rag tag tapestry,
with vulgarly mismatched colours,
monster,
mutant,
self-protrait

a time for memories,
a minute to admire the past.
a runner glances,
he's come far.
but all in all, about halfway.
landmarks by d side,
passing them one by one,
each one passed ensures rejuvanation.
ah!
but the effect is stifled by fatigue
the end is still far.
nearing tho,
nearing still,
not soon enough.


step by step ya? =)
missing u*

Songs For a Moping Joash:

1. Plain White T's : Hey There Delilah
2. Saosin: I Can Tell There Was an Accident
3. Story of the Year : Until the Day I Die
4. Mayday : Er Wo Zhi Dao
5. All American Rejects : The Last Song
6. Dishwalla : Angels and Devils
7. Goo Goo Dolls: Black Balloon
8. Jimi Hendrix : Little Wing
9. KT Tunstall : Other Side Of the World.
10. Eagle Eye Cherry: Save Tonight
11. Pearl Jam : Black
12. Pearl Jam : Last Kiss
    
13. Snow Patrol : Run
14. 3rd Eye Blind : How's it Gonna Be
15. Finch : What it is to burn.
16. Adema : Giving in
17. Fort Minor : Where'd U Go
    
18. Joash: random irritating whines and moans of displeasure.

more playlists as my mood changes

i feel shitty.

dun tell me i shld cheer up..

i wanna mope..

ARGH!!!!

it's almost here.. time's running out.. i can onli hope d light at d end comes faster..

glad there is an end..

i m, despite my whining, excited for u.. '

will miss u a HELL lot!

still feel lyk it hasn't sunk in yet.. but it's creeping in lyk d venom ting.. haha

i could quote a thousand songs to tell u how i feel now,

but it all boils down to this..

i'll miss u, everything abt u

please take care, have fun an come back soon!





Let's waste time again,
Let's waste time again.
pointless as it seems,
Let's waste time again.

It's not like we have a better plan,
It's not like we want, but it's gonna end.
Just clinging to clouds in futile attempts.

a step to tomorrow,
a cesspool of fear,
an empty landscape,
a river of tears.
Let Me Drown.

Let's waste time again,
Let's waste time again.
pointless as it seems,
Let's waste time again.

A beautiful prospect, it's all calm,
Silent tranquility, Time's hands slow,
In her rotation, blissfully numb.

a muse,
merely.
of things unattainable,
yet forcing fantasy.
a perfect fit,
a castle of mist,
tip-tapping raindrops on the face of hope.
awakening its slumber.
passion renewed.
strong swaying with gentle whispers,
yet only to be admired awhile.
as rain dispenses smoke.
she remains,
merely,
a muse.

like the pea under layers of mattresses.

pinned down but not fatally.

sian-ness defined.

a walk through the land of constantly pervasive
anti-climatic feelings.


that's just what life is.

it's never as good or as bad as anticipated.

all pulls you back to equilibrium.

*ha.... ha.... ha....*

the words of the dead grant them immortality

an ending?
sick an twisted.
move to point,
pay thru blood.

a list to do,
set aflame.

a flood of pain,
enforces confusion.
cries i cast.
wrong places,
wrong results.

tears.

still i fail to look Up.
a reluctant Atlas.
Swaying.

please please please..........

Freak On A Leash

Something takes a part of me.
Something lost and never seen.
Every time I start to believe,
Something's raped and taken from me... from me.

Life's got to always be messing with me. (You wanna see the light)
Can't they chill and let me be free? (So do I)
Can't I take away all this pain. (You wanna see the light)
I try to every night, all in vain... in vain.

Sometimes I cannot take this place.
Sometimes it's my life I can't taste.
Sometimes I cannot feel my face.
You'll never see me fall from grace 

Something takes a part of me.
You and I were meant to be.
A cheap fuck for me to lay.
Something takes a part of me.

Feeling like a freak on a leash. (You wanna see the light)
Feeling like I have no release. (So do I)
How many times have I felt diseased? (You wanna see the light)
Nothing in my life is free... is free

Chorus

Boom na da mmm dum na ema
Da boom na da mmm dum na ema

GO!

So...fight! something on the...
Fight...some things they fight
So...something on the...
Fight...some things they fight
Fight...something of the
No...some things they fight
Fight...something of the...
Fight...some things they fight

Chorus

Part of me...
Oh...

it my mind, something clicked..

2 long hav we let old ppl insult us..

we hav juz said, 'we see how it goes next time..'

no1 ever tells them they screwed up..

well..

i can respect sum1 cuz of his rank, but tt's d army. outside.. who r u 2 demand respect when u insulted my family?

an still stick 2 ur blinkered logic..

i dun wanna name u..

but clearly, i dun respect u an i wun fake a smile..

i finally let it out of my system..

anger never felt so.. liberating..

it's juz.. volatile..

Fuckin' Up

Mindless drifter on the road
Carry such an easy load
It's how you look,
and how you feel
You must have
a heart of steel.

Why do I keep fuckin' up?

I can see you on a hill
Comatose but walking still
Curves beneath
your flowing gown
Only I could
bring you down.

Why do I keep fuckin' up?

Dogs that lick
and dogs that bite
Hounds that howl
through the night
Broken leashes
are all over the floor
Keys left hanging
in a swinging door.

Why do I keep fuckin' up?

Keep fuckin' up!

HAHAHA! PART 2.. see previous post for previous part.. =P

HAHAHA! more randomness!