no more will i have to trudge my way down to the irritating area that is Kg Ubi,
where pressure mounts as the days pass, and occasionally a certain instructor's gender comes into question. Looks SOMEWHAT like a man, but sounds like a woman, and nags like an old lady.
she/he was nice though, and helpful in my progress.
Waking up in the morning is always painful, no matter which country you are in. the super soft pillows and flashy neckroll made for a long time falling asleep. still, i made it out to go to Tsing Yi, which is just a giant shopping centre.
nothing interesting, so no pictures.
We have breakfast beforehand, which was a dodgy looking beehoon stall with good standards as usual, but i was too sleepy to take photos.
In Tsing Yi, they did have a large display of Easter Egg art that was done by a Japanese girl, and with descriptions written in Jap as well; so all you could do was admire it from afar.
Hong Kong people must have really itchy fingers.
With nothing really interesting, we made it down to Sham Sui Po, some some toy wholesaler street. Got my brother a weird vibrating Mario toy.
Heh heh heh.
Ate massive Beef Noodles soup, and forgot to take a picture again.
Dad landed, brother finished school, ate the Chee Choong Fun again. and then steamboat after.
Great tasting!
After dinner, back to brother's hall; jamming.
old photo, but guess i must have hit that pose sometime (i do not re-wear my shirts on consecutive days).
Took the bus back, and the idiot bus driver asked me to get off a stop earlier. blinded by the bright lights of the street signs, i cursed his impatience and my inability to speak cantonese.
thankfully i found out first hand that many of them know English and are very helpful in giving directions, thus i got back rather quickly , at about 1145pm. guess the streets are quite safe.
End of Day 2
Day 3 started off quite well, i guess. We planned to have Dim Sum with my brother and his friends, so it was later. I was hungry now, so i ate many cherry tomatoes and my mom bought the day before.
Still with a few hours to kill, mom, dad and me decided to walk around the streets, where the wet markets were, a rarity in Singapore.
I understand that some content may convert some people to veganism, but i guess it's always good to find out where your food comes from.
Veg and seafood included.
there were of course, some foodstuffs that we knew what they were exactly, yet failed to know what to do with them.
they do work quite fast i must say, this was taken 10 minutes after.
Two days from the day i attained my freedom, 1 month after hitting perth, i was at it again.
Starting the journey, i wasn't really expecting anything at all, maybe i'm becoming spoilt. But i packed, checked in and trudged to the waiting area of the Cathay Pacific flight, which was PRC OVERloaded (f**k.). Not before I almost died walking about 2km to meet my mom for breakfast in T3 from T1. And back.
My backpack was a bit of a hassle. I was asked to bring a squash racquet from home. It couldn't fit my luggage, so it was stuffed, handle sticking out in my backpack, a potential catalyst for injury when combined with my clumsy, waddling self.
On board, i could not help to notice that they had a channel which displays an utterly pointless but intriguing view of the bottom of the plane. So take off and landing proved more entertaining that just an irritating ear-popping experience. That being said, the channel proved blinding to watch during the flight, as the clouds, sunlight and reflective body of the plane joined to create an amazingly bright white screen.
Met my mom in the airport again, cleared customs, shipped off the Airport Express to Kowloon, free shuttle bus service to the hotel in the Jordan area. Checked in, everything settled. I was hungry. I demanded food. This led her to bring me just two steps from the lobby of the hotel room, to get the most amazing Chee Choong Fun ever.
The peanut sauce is AMAZING!
It was about that time that my brother reached us from the HKU hall he was staying at, and this proceeded to bring me around the area a bit. But it was not long before dinner was due.
1st real meal: Roasted duck and pork rice. Compared to the first meal i had in perth, which was some sort of roasted chicken with rice, this was 4 bucks cheaper, and 10 times nicer. After dinner, brother and me split with mom to head to his hall and subsequently Lan Kwai Fong.
Idiot brother made us get off 2 early. You've been there what, 3 months?! I wasn't so peeved about the walking, I mean, it wasn't like I haven't done that in the morning. The air was cool, so no problem. What pissed me off was the sheer height that was visible from the pathway we were walking on. I'm talking concrete paths unsupported by pillars, tops of trees and the 16th story of nearby buildings below your feet. Sure I felt safe, safe enough to wish i brought a parachute. Above is an eye-level photograph. My brother states that all of Hong Kong is like that. For one i didn't see valleys from my hotel room window, so I think he was just trying to be reassuring.
Being told that his hall had a band room, i bought a pair of sticks all ready to do what i haven't done in awhile; spend some quality time jamming with my brother.
I would like to say that the scene was so moving that someone was almost moved to tears, but that's just his singing face.
A good hour of jamming down, we quite easily pried my brother's roomie from this work to Lan Kwai Fong, some pub area in the Central district. Afterwhich we heard the from other people that a bar had free drinks for men till 11pm. Being only about 930pm, the prospect suggested, led many from the hall area (mostly Americans, Canadians and Europeans should i add) , trudging down, hoping to return gleeful when the night ended.
One free drink later onto another bar, the thought of spending the night drinking and returning rip-roaring drunk to the hotel room didn't seem like and attractive one, even with the great company, so my brother and me left to eat. He had promised me at the start of the night to bring me to eat the "BEST burgers ever". I am excited.
For once in a long time, he did not disappoint. It was the stuff of fantasy, with hand-made patties, toasted buns, the works.
Things got messier than so claimed by Carls Jr., simplier, but way more tasty. Just tomatoes, lettuce, onions and mayo, perfect.
The Chilli Cheese Fries, exquisite.
Headed back to the hotel after that rather easily. Thus ended my first day, and started my trip in the land of cheap and good food, endless sights of the fusion of past present and future, and proud public displays of Engrish.
"i don't wanna take what you can give, i would rather starve than eat you bread."
"everything has changed, absolutely nothing's changed."
Pearl Jam's "Corduroy"
"i couldn't affORD to refuse the ORDers given by the higer ORDinance to leave the bORDers of my camp and ORDinary life again. thank the L-ORD for this!"
in other news, HK is damn fun can. will post more soon.
From the time I started writing this journal on my history, I have realised this. In the years from which i was birthed, the dual-empire world where you had to take a side watched one side crumble, and the ideology of the dominant spreading over it's remains; a Pax Americana would rise. The notion of a black an white world shattered and showed the reality of the different shades of colour, different shades of hate. But a further analysis would show that earth-shattering events will always take place, shifting the tracks of which the global train runs on unceasingly. The past is always seemed better as the suffering of the present is always more vivid.
i begin again.
1995
Primary 2 this year, still hating school, but yet getting first in class a few times.
I win 3rd in some inter-class competition, and fiddle with the trophy till it breaks. I try to switch it with my best friend at that time, fail and stick it together with scotch tape when i get back. my mom still keeps it in the antique cabinet in my living room. this will be the last trophy i win till i hit JC.
I get into a good class for pri 3 but hate it as all my other friends to go other classes in the same tier.
Eric Cantona of Man U fame, after being red-carded, kicks a Crystal Palace fan in the head, and gets suspended for 9 months.
Yahoo! is founded in Santa Clara, California.
The DVD is announced.
Alanis Morissette releases Jagged Little Pill
Queen release their final album, Made in Heaven
1996
Primary 3 seems alright, with me finding science totally cool and fun.
I was one of those kids that carried all my books to school, so i never packed.
Most prevalent feeling: worry that i'll somehow F*** something up.
Yasser Arafat is re-elected President of the Palestinian Authority.
"Deep Blue" defeats Garry Kasprov for the first time. I remember this.
A Long March 3 rocket veers off course from it's launch pad in China and lands in a rural village, killing 500.
The Nintendo 64 is released. I'm still playing with my Mega Drive 2.
Osama Bin Laden writes "The Declaration of Jihad on the Americans Occupying the Country of the Two Sacred Places," a call for the removal of American forces from Saudi Arabia.
M.C. Hammer declares himself a bankrupt.
Bands like Matchbox Twenty and Linkin Park form.
1997
Primary 4 and the dreaded year of streaming. I do ok i guess, getting into the best EM2 class.
Somehow i think my science teacher hates me even thought i do well for her class. Must be cause i over-read and seem lazy and inattentive in class. (yes, i'm a nerd i know.)
i HATE my chinese teacher, who also happens to be my form teacher. This will not be the first time the language bites me in the ass.
The United Kingdom hands over sovreignty of Hong Kong over to China. I'm i went there before the handover, but i can't seem to remember exactly when.
Princess Diana and Mother Theresa pass away. This i really remember.
The "seizure" episode of Pokemon, DennÅ SenshiPorygon, was shown and 385 Japanese kids either had seizures, temporary blindness, or the combination of the two.
The Bird Flu hits Hong Kong and they cull all the chickens in their territory. I was there and i still ate chicken. hahaha!
The so called "Big Three" Banks of Swtizerland announce the creation of a $71 million fund to aid Holocaust victims and their families.
I turn 5 and enter K1 this year. I have stopped crying but i still hate school.
I am forced to perform "All i want for Christmas is my 2 front teeth", wearing red shorts, a yellow shirt and a paper mouth for the year end concert.
Jealous that my brother got to play soldier and carry a gun the year before, and angry that they would me wear something that even a 5 year old would consider a fashion disaster, I resort to playing with my shadow on stage. I have the proof of that on film.
George H. W. Bush is televised falling violently ill at a state dinner in Japan. He vomits on the lap of Prime Minister Kiichi Miyazawa and faints.
Boris Yeltsin announces that Russia will stop targeting US cities with nuclear weapons.
The Church of England allows women to become priests.
Bands like blink-182, Weezer, Jamiroquai are formed.
1993
6 and K2 this year.
I am sad when my classmate invites the class to his house and refuses to let me play his SNES. (aren't we all supposed to be friends?! asshole.)
Ong Teng Cheong becomes the first President elected by the population. I remember the posters.
SIA gets the 1000th Boeing 747.
BIll Clinton is elected President.
Frank Zappa dies of prostrate cancer.
Micheal Jackson denies child molestation charges in a 4-minute statement broadcast on live television. (not the last time man.)
The Spice Girls, Backstreet Boys, Jimmy Eat World, Third Eye Blind are formed this year.
1994
7 and in Primary 1 this year. I cry again in the first 2 weeks. (man i hate school. will only start to enjoy in in upper sec.)
Get top in class for the 1st semester feel depressed when i get 5th for the next.
Nirvana play their final show in Munich, Germany.
Kurt Cobain dies this year.
Friends premieres on NBC
Netscape Navigator 1.0 is released.
Dave Matthews Band's Under the Table and Dreaming is released. (ROCKS!)
The Israel-Jordan Treaty of Peace is signed, ending the state of war since 1948.
The Lion King is released.
Blogger is screwing up on me. Grrrr.
in today's news, me being helpful an volunteering to go back to help my Branch last night resulted in me sleeping at 3 a.m. DAMMIT.
I turn 3 this year, still can't remember shit but i'm quite sure i'm walking an talking like a normal child.
Apperently i didn't say a 1st word, but said a phrase, "gimmie that f***ing cookie b*tch!" (maybe not that phrase per se)
The first Macdonald's opens in Moscow, Russia.
Nelson Mendela is released from Victor Verster Prison, near Cape Town, South Africa after 27 years behind bars.
The Royal New Zealand Navy stops it's daily rum ration.
East Germany holds it's first free elections.
West and East Germany unite on Oct 3.
The World Health Organization removes homosexuality from its list of diseases.
Iraq invades Kuwait, leading to the Gulf War I.
The first known World Wide Web page is written.
Slobodan MiloÅ¡eviÄ becomes President of Serbia.
Goh Chok Tong becomes the second Prime Minister of Singapore.
The East-West MRT line is complete.
Pearl Jam is formed! (whoo!)
1991:
I turn 4 this year. My life of eternal holidays are gone.
I am forced to go to kindergarten.
I cry for at least the first few weeks. My grandad wonders what horrible things are happening there and agrees to fetch me from school.
4 Pakistanis hijack Singapore Airlines Filght 117, and are killed by the SOF.
Operation Desert Storm begins after Iraq fails to follow the UN deadline to withdraw from Kuwait.
Boris Yeltsin begins his 5-year term as the first elected president of Russia.
The Warsaw Pact is officially dissolved in Prague.
The SNES is released in the US.
States like Estonia, Ukraine, Belarus, Azerbaijan, Kyrgyzstan, Uzbekistan and Latvia declare independence from Russia signalling the collaspe of the Soviet Union.
Mikhail Gorbachev resigns as president of the Soviet Union.
The Soviet Union officially ceases to exist.
First GSM-phonecall rang in Finland.
A Michigan Court bars Dr. Jack Kevorkian in assisting suicides.
Nirvana release Nevermind.
Grunge is in!
Freddie Mecury dies of AIDS related complications in his home.
Dave Matthews Band release their debut album (rocks!).
Eric Clapton's 4 year old son falls 53 stories in his New York apartment.
RHCP release Blood Sugar Sex Magik.
Bands like Rage Against The Machine, Radiohead, L'Arc-en-Ciel, AFI and OutKast form.
facebookas i sat in a cab on my way home today it struck me;
it has been almost a decade from the turning of a the new millenia.
i am bored and awaiting my heading back to camp in utter distain, thus i shall attempt to chronicle the events that happened to the world, an me (more importantly), as much as i can remember that is.
i present to you;
THE HISTORY OF THE WORLD IN RELATION TO JOASH'S LIFE
1987:
I was born: on the morning of the 24th of May. (yay for the world!)
Guns N' Roses release their album Appitite for Destruction.
Green Day is formed.
The 1st heart-lung transplant is performed in Baltimore, Maryland.
World population reached 5 billion people in Zagreb, Croatia.
The First Intifada begins in the Gaza Strip and West Bank.
Ronald Reagan challenges Mikhail Gorbechev to tear down the Berlin Wall. " Mr Gorbechev, tear down this wall!"
The initial section of the MRT is opened between Yio Chu Kang and Toa Payoh.
1988:
I was a baby, so i don't think i can remember much. I turned 1 this year i guess.
USSR begins Perestroika under Mikhail Gorbechev.
Bands like Mr Big, Barenaked Ladies, B'z, The Smashing Pumpkins, Nine Inch Nails,Deftones, Baha Men (-_-") and Cypress Hill are formed.
The Red Army starts to withdraws from Afganistan. (We can thank Rambo for that.)
The Iran-Iraq war ends, with an estimated one-million lives lost.
Benazir Bhutto is sworn in as Prime Minister of Pakistan, the 1st woman to head to government of an Islam-dominated state.
The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho is first published.
1989:
I turn 2 this year. (still can't remember shit.)
dad started travelling. at the height of this, he would be gone half the year.
The Revolutions of 1989 sweep the Soviet Eastern Bloc, ushering in the death of Stalinistic Marxism-Leninism, leading to US dominance that lasts till this day.
The Japanese Emperor Hirohito dies (29th April 1901 - 7th Jan 1989).
The Soviet withdrawal from Afganistan is complete.
An Iranian leader Ruhollah Khomeini encourages Muslims to kill Salman Rushdie, author of The Satanic Verses. Iran also cuts of diplomatic relations with the UK over this book.
The Exxon Valdez oil spill take splace, 11 million gallons of oil are released.
The first free elections in the Soviet Parliment goes against the Communist Party.
The Dilbert comic strip is syndicated for the 1st time.
The Tiananmen Square protests of 1989 take place.
The Berlin Wall falls on the 9th of November.
Dream Theater release their first studio album.
i tire. part to will begin soon.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
less thoughts make for a happier joash.
i am a man of small demands,
let me come out during the evenings,
and leave me alone to read.
the leech once again is unrelenting.
oh let January pass!
Sunday, January 13, 2008
the sky bleeds black today, groans and bellows.
a beginning indeed, a life reviewed.
my god.
i am shocked into silence.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
It has come to this, I'm finally going back to camp.
best days of 2007 came to me in the year's final struggle before it's death. i watched in excitement as the she trashed, then fell silent.
Flashes of lights in the sky heralds a new birth.
2007 was a year that left a bitter taste in my mouth, 2008 will be one of change. The thought of it leaves me dizzy with excitement.
With that said, a year is a year, moved on by the repeated gradual fading of light to dark, and dark to light. There is no physical indication of a start or a finish, nor a mark that separates the months from days, or hours and seconds.
The gears will spin on mindlessly, and no one can do anything to stop it.
There is Nothing New Under the Sun.
First change to occur: Fobble ChatterBox gives way to Cbox. (Good riddance bitch!)
Happy New Year people.
"If I tell you I'm strong will you play along? Will you see I'm as insecure as anybody else?"
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
DAVE MATTHEWS BAND DIGGING A DITCH
Run to your dreaming, when you’re alone Unplug the TV and turn off the phone Get heavy on with digging your ditch Cause I’m
Digging a ditch where madness gives Digging a ditch where silence lives Digging a ditch for when I’m old Digging a ditch my story’s told
Where all these troubles weigh down on me will rise Run to your dreaming when you’re alone Where all these questions spinnin' around in my head will die Will die Will die
Run to your dreaming when you’re alone Unplug the TV and turn off your phone Get heavy on with digging your ditch Cause I’m
Digging a ditch where madness gives Digging a ditch where silence lives Digging a ditch for when I’m through Digging this ditch I’m digging for you
Where all these disappointments that grow angry out of me will die Where all these habits that hold heavy on my heart will die
Run to your dreaming when you’re alone Not what you should be or what you’ve become Just get heavy on with digging your ditch Cause I’m
Digging a ditch where madness gives a bit Digging a ditch where silence lives Where all these troubles weigh down on me will rise Will rise Will rise Will rise
Run to your dreaming when you’re alone Unplug the TV and turn off your phone Get heavy on with digging your ditch
dumb dreams, i walk home in the thick wet midafternoon sun
Sunday, September 30, 2007
the gig really drained me
but this song made me feel much better.
Ants Marching
He wakes up in the morning Does his teeth bite to eat and he's rolling Never changes a thing The week ends the week begins She thinks, we look at each other Wondering what the other is thinking But we never say a thing These crimes between us grow deeper
Goes to visit his mommy She feeds him well his concerns He forgets them And remembers being small Playing under the table and dreaming
Take these chances Place them in a box until a quieter time Lights down, you up and die
Driving in on this highway All these cars and upon the sidewalk People in every direction No words exchanged No time to exchange
And all the little ants are marching Red and black antennas waving They all do it the same They all do it the same way
Candyman tempting the thoughts of a Sweet tooth tortured by the weight loss Program cutting the corners Loose end, loose end, cut, cut On the fence, could not to offend Cut, cut, cut, cut
Take these chances Place them in a box until a quieter time Lights down, you up and die
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
5 and a half months left. jamming more and more. songs to learn. pressure.
it stirs in me happiness, a purpose. but not as much as i would like.
as much as i have been going out, i miss one thing badly;
"i'll leave you some soup. warm it up and drink it when u get back."
most of you would realize that i have been frequenting a jamming studio in simei recently, mostly due to neighbours with super sensitive ears & retire to bed at 7 pm.
so i have to pay cash to play when i have all the equipment at home. sucks. (got pissed and drew on my drumskins, see previous post)
it's all well & good tho, i do get to try double pedals and stuff.
but one thing that i find amazing is the immense strength of the people that play the drums there..
the things that look like hay in the picture are parts of a broken drumstick. notice how there is dust of a identical colour tone.
the drummer who did this didn't just break a stick, he SHATTERED it.
W.....T.....H.....
Saturday, August 04, 2007
okok.. here's an update! i went shopping for drum stuff today!
cymbal crown (didn't fit) *sob*
snare attachment to fit cowbell an tambourine ( yay!)
practice pad that can be strapped to my knee (double yay!)
my new almost complete drumset!
wanted 2 take a picture of the practice pad, but bro took back his phone, so no more camera.
too bad it's 2am, can't wait 2 play it soon!
whee! feel like a kid on christmas
Thursday, August 02, 2007
"their time done, they passed out of the gates to freedom, for the second time"
happy ORD Kee Wee and Desmond!
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
"Cause out on the edge of darkness, there rides a peace train...come take me home..."
an overwhelming air of mid-teen bliss, hormones raging, weakly corrupted by conscripted pains. digital dreams scraping my eardrums, quietly suburban lanes.
the breeze blows cooler here, Sun's little daggers, find their blades dulled. thick fluffy down that slows you, willingly.
ruined by company, yet leaving you lonely, mind you, you're twenty!
awaken to chimes on bicycles, to bodies of water, small benches at bus-stops. I see myself at every corner, I've walked every path of the park. the longer I stare, slowly, growing smaller.
almost home.
Thursday, July 12, 2007
you're right, you're absolutely right.
Monday, July 09, 2007
the origin of angst
" We don't need no education We dont need no thought control"
Thursday, July 05, 2007
who says pop drumming can't be lyk power??
i give u.
(look out for bridge!)
i found myself stuck in a studio in chinatown watching a band playing chinese songs, but the singer ended up sounding thai.
my brother had asked me along to watch him jam wit this band that called him in. the guitarist/singer played songs that required only 4 chords even tho he had a Gibson, the drummer look stoned, my brother looked bored. they all looked 10 years older than me.
in the midst of d cacophony, i did wat i least expected to do. i started tinking... i noticed that tt this was wat i wanted 2 do. it's a purpose, a legacy they leave behind. i did manage to prove myself when the ting wuz over. but wat was d point? there's nowhere for me 2 go.
i've been a bum just looking for tings to do.. an now i feel damn guilty.
apologies to all who i have whined to an bugged..
i have got 2 make d best of my life..
i've got 2 occupy myself..
cuz seriously, i have gotta carry this weight by myself.
haiz*
Sunday, July 01, 2007
some songs just ring in your head..
this is 1 of them
Pearl Jam - Worldwide Suicide
I felt the earth on Monday, It moved beneath my feet. In the form of a morning paper, Laid out for me to see.
Saw his face in a corner picture, I recognized the name. Could not stop staring at the, Face I'd never see again.
It's a shame to awake in a world of pain What does it mean when a war has taken over
It's the same everyday in a hell manmade What can be saved, and who will be left to hold her?
The whole world, World over. It's a worldwide suicide.
Medals on a wooden mantle, Next to a handsome face. That the president took for granted, Writing checks that others pay.
And in all the madness, thought becomes numb and naive. So much to talk about, nothing for to say.
It's the same everyday and the wave won't break Tell you to pray, while the devils on their shoulder
Laying claim to the take that our soldiers save Does not equate, and the truth's already out there
The whole world, World over. It's a worldwide suicide.
The whole world, World over. It's a worldwide suicide.
Looking in the eyes of the fallen You got to know there's another, another, another, another, another way
It's a shame to awake in a world of pain What does it mean when a war has taken over
It's the same everyday and the wave won't break Tell you to pray, while the devils on their shoulder
The whole world, World over. It's a worldwide suicide.
The whole world, World over. It's a worldwide suicide.
Sunday, June 24, 2007
i still can't slp on weekends
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
part 2!
i feel this take is beta..
by alot..
an yeah..
it's narcissist.
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
every1 is entitled to narcicism (is tt how it's spelt?)
here's mine.
2nd take up soon..
*hee*
Sunday, June 17, 2007
GOD... i wish i wish i wish..
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
we are all raindrops, trying to make the biggest ripple in the ocean
Sunday, June 10, 2007
THIRD EYE BLIND: How's it gonna be
I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore Before you take a swing I wonder, what are we fighting for When I say out loud I want to get out of this I wonder, is there anything I'm gonna miss
I wonder How's it gonna be When you don't know me How's it gonna be When you're sure I'm not there How's it gonna be When there's no one there to talk to you Between you and me 'Cause I don't care How's it gonna be How's it gonna be
Where we used to laugh There's a shouting match Sharp as a thumbnail scratch A silence I can't ignore Like the hammock by the doorway we spent time in Swings empty I don't see lightning like last fall When it was always about to hit me
I wonder How's it gonna be When it goes down How's it gonna be When you're not around How's it gonna be When you found out there was nothing Between you and me 'Cause I don't care How's it gonna be
How's it gonna be When you don't know me any more And how's it gonna be
Want to get myself back in again The soft dive of oblivion I want to taste the salt of your skin The soft dive of oblivion, oblivion
How's it gonna be When you don't know me any more How's it gonna be How's it gonna be How's it gonna be
y can't i slp at nite on weekends?
Saturday, June 09, 2007
extreme boredom has resulted in . . . . . . .
a skill learnt in camp being put into practise.
kudos to kee wee..
this pic's instantly emo.. hahah
Sunday, June 03, 2007
it consumes me.
a song that lessens burdens, and ode to reignite passion. rise up, rise up. away from that acrid pleasure! prise us from the seductive bitterness, the flute that leaves you spinning, swirling, alone.
hope has blossomed, yet is refused an audience. veiled glory peeking thru, foolishly ignored.
rise up, rise up. spread the binds, stir up from dejection, the journey, your episode, must run its course.
Saturday, June 02, 2007
YES!!!! finally got wat i wuz looking for.. seems kinda implusive.. but wth.. it sounds great..
i give u the new fave cymbal..
my 11 inch turkish splash
a less than $100 cymbal beats lousy zildjian
i m thus converted
well.. it's not done.. but it's getting there.. feel lyk i've gotten my mojo back.. lyk now.. this is all so new and exciting..
*WHOOOO*
Sunday, May 20, 2007
hmmm there are times when u juz question urself.. wat r u doing wit urself?
where are u going?
what's this life for?
i feel unsatisfied..
but i guess it's juz a phase..
i'll get thru it..
=)
Saturday, May 19, 2007
description of my life so far:
"i hate my life! i hate my job! and MOST of all, i hate YOU! and you... and you... and you... an you... ... ..."
no i'm not tt emo in person
Friday, May 18, 2007
fine i'll stop writing weird shit..
my life my life my life..
sex an violence.. erm...
A FEMALE PRAYING MANTIS BITES OF THE HEAD OF A MALE DURING INTERCOURSE TO FACILITATE EJACULATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*BISH*
*BLOOD GUSHES OUT*
*SQUIRT*
*YAY!*
one more utterly useless bit of information..
i should tell u abt my life..
i shouldn't bitch.. cuz ppl mite read an it's funnier when i tell u in person.. or when u hear my voice..
guns are phallic symbols.. and Singapore is moving towards shrinking our rifles.
let it speak to me. pluck a line. squeeze a circle in to a square. it fits.
cling on with fervor, claimed linage.
process reengaged
rag tag tapestry, with vulgarly mismatched colours, monster, mutant, self-protrait
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
a time for memories, a minute to admire the past. a runner glances, he's come far. but all in all, about halfway. landmarks by d side, passing them one by one, each one passed ensures rejuvanation. ah! but the effect is stifled by fatigue the end is still far. nearing tho, nearing still, not soon enough.
step by step ya? =) missing u*
Sunday, May 06, 2007
Songs For a Moping Joash:
Plain White T's : Hey There Delilah
Saosin: I Can Tell There Was an Accident
Story of the Year : Until the Day I Die
Mayday : Er Wo Zhi Dao
All American Rejects : The Last Song
Dishwalla : Angels and Devils
Goo Goo Dolls: Black Balloon
Jimi Hendrix : Little Wing
KT Tunstall : Other Side Of the World.
Eagle Eye Cherry: Save Tonight
Pearl Jam : Black
Pearl Jam : Last Kiss
Snow Patrol : Run
3rd Eye Blind : How's it Gonna Be
Finch : What it is to burn.
Adema : Giving in
Fort Minor : Where'd U Go
Joash: random irritating whines and moans of displeasure.
more playlists as my mood changes
i feel shitty.
dun tell me i shld cheer up..
i wanna mope..
ARGH!!!!
it's almost here.. time's running out.. i can onli hope d light at d end comes faster..
glad there is an end..
i m, despite my whining, excited for u.. '
will miss u a HELL lot!
still feel lyk it hasn't sunk in yet.. but it's creeping in lyk d venom ting.. haha
i could quote a thousand songs to tell u how i feel now,
but it all boils down to this..
i'll miss u, everything abt u
please take care, have fun an come back soon!
Let's waste time again, Let's waste time again. pointless as it seems, Let's waste time again.
It's not like we have a better plan, It's not like we want, but it's gonna end. Just clinging to clouds in futile attempts.
a step to tomorrow, a cesspool of fear, an empty landscape, a river of tears. Let Me Drown.
Let's waste time again, Let's waste time again. pointless as it seems, Let's waste time again.
A beautiful prospect, it's all calm, Silent tranquility, Time's hands slow, In her rotation, blissfully numb.
Monday, April 30, 2007
a muse, merely. of things unattainable, yet forcing fantasy. a perfect fit, a castle of mist, tip-tapping raindrops on the face of hope. awakening its slumber. passion renewed. strong swaying with gentle whispers, yet only to be admired awhile. as rain dispenses smoke. she remains, merely, a muse.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
like the pea under layers of mattresses.
pinned down but not fatally.
sian-ness defined.
Sunday, April 15, 2007
a walk through the land of constantly pervasive anti-climatic feelings.
that's just what life is.
it's never as good or as bad as anticipated.
all pulls you back to equilibrium.
*ha.... ha.... ha....*
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
the words of the dead grant them immortality
Friday, March 30, 2007
an ending? sick an twisted. move to point, pay thru blood.
a list to do, set aflame.
a flood of pain, enforces confusion. cries i cast. wrong places, wrong results.
tears.
still i fail to look Up. a reluctant Atlas. Swaying.
please please please..........
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Freak On A Leash
Something takes a part of me. Something lost and never seen. Every time I start to believe, Something's raped and taken from me... from me.
Life's got to always be messing with me. (You wanna see the light) Can't they chill and let me be free? (So do I) Can't I take away all this pain. (You wanna see the light) I try to every night, all in vain... in vain.
Sometimes I cannot take this place. Sometimes it's my life I can't taste. Sometimes I cannot feel my face. You'll never see me fall from grace
Something takes a part of me. You and I were meant to be. A cheap fuck for me to lay. Something takes a part of me.
Feeling like a freak on a leash. (You wanna see the light) Feeling like I have no release. (So do I) How many times have I felt diseased? (You wanna see the light) Nothing in my life is free... is free
Chorus
Boom na da mmm dum na ema Da boom na da mmm dum na ema
GO!
So...fight! something on the... Fight...some things they fight So...something on the... Fight...some things they fight Fight...something of the No...some things they fight Fight...something of the... Fight...some things they fight
Chorus
Part of me... Oh...
Monday, March 05, 2007
it my mind, something clicked..
2 long hav we let old ppl insult us..
we hav juz said, 'we see how it goes next time..'
no1 ever tells them they screwed up..
well..
i can respect sum1 cuz of his rank, but tt's d army. outside.. who r u 2 demand respect when u insulted my family?
an still stick 2 ur blinkered logic..
i dun wanna name u..
but clearly, i dun respect u an i wun fake a smile..
Sunday, March 04, 2007
i finally let it out of my system..
anger never felt so.. liberating..
Saturday, February 24, 2007
it's juz.. volatile..
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Fuckin' Up
Mindless drifter on the road Carry such an easy load It's how you look, and how you feel You must have a heart of steel.
Why do I keep fuckin' up?
I can see you on a hill Comatose but walking still Curves beneath your flowing gown Only I could bring you down.
Why do I keep fuckin' up?
Dogs that lick and dogs that bite Hounds that howl through the night Broken leashes are all over the floor Keys left hanging in a swinging door.
Why do I keep fuckin' up?
Keep fuckin' up!
Thursday, January 25, 2007
HAHAHA! PART 2.. see previous post for previous part.. =P
HAHAHA! more randomness!
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
remember tt little penguin from Happy Feet who raps?
i found the song! hahaha
'don't push me cause i'm close to the edge. i'm trying not to lose my head!'
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Ananova: Opik fell for Cheeky Girl's brains
Liberal Democrat MP Lembit Opik says he fell for his Cheeky Girl lover because she challenges him intellectually.
He told Hello! magazine that it was not Gabriela Irimia's curves that won him over.
Lembit, 41, said: "She challenges me intellectually. Our relationship is not based on lust.
"It's primarily a relationship of intellect and meeting of minds.
"I don't see her as a Cheeky Girl, I see her as Gabriela, who really holds my emotional and mental attention."
But Gabriela, 24, said: "I'd never heard of him before in my life! I was never into politics."
Lembit also revealed MPs regularly sing The Cheeky Song (Touch My Bum) to him in the Commons - "very badly".
His ex-fiancee Sian Lloyd, 48, is interviewed in the same edition of the mag and gets bigger billing on the front cover.
Wednesday 17th January 2007
Cheeky... Girls....? erm.. weren't they lyk the one hit wonders from.... my sec 4 daes?? ananova.com rocks
Sunday, January 14, 2007
babe! this is totally for u!
=)
love u dear! =)
You're my Honeybunch, Sugarplum Pumpy-umpy-umpkin, You're my Sweetie Pie You're my Cuppycake, Gumdrop Snoogums-Boogums, You're the Apple of my Eye And I love you so and I want you to know That I'll always be right here And I love to sing sweet songs to you Because you are so dear
Sunday, January 07, 2007
we should never have to beg for ppl to care.
Thursday, January 04, 2007
elo from camp! damn sian..
using the communal computer.. onli com wit msn in the whole camp?
wat the.. haha got till 130pm..
the computer comforts me.. hahaha! it's lyk a singular link to the outside world.. haha..
missing evry1!
Sunday, December 17, 2006
HAHA!
How To Save A Life (The Fray)
Step one you say we need to talk He walks you say sit down it’s just a talk He smiles politely back at you You stare politely right on through Some sort of window to your right As he goes left and you stay right Between the lines of fear and blame And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness And I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best Cause after all you do know best Try to slip past his defense Without granting innocence Lay down a list of what is wrong The things you’ve told him all along And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness And I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice You lower yours and grant him one last choice Drive until you lose the road Or break with the ones you’ve followed He will do one of two things He will admit to everything Or he’ll say he’s just not the same And you’ll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness And I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known how to save a life
i would hav stayed up wit you all nite.. how slow time is now..
the calm b4 the storm..
missing you..
missing you all..
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
i was nv good at say wat i reali feel.. so here is another song..
F..
Pink Floyd Wish You Were Here
So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell Blue skies from pain Can you tell a green field From a cold steel rail A smile from a veil Do you think you can tell Did they get you to trade Your heroes for ghosts Hot ashes for trees Hot air for a cool breeze Cold comfort for change Did you exchange A walk on part in the war For a lead role in a cage
How I wish How I wish you were here We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl Year after year Running over the same old ground What have we found The same old fears Wish you were here
wish i cld sing beta.. ahaha =P
*wish you were here*
Saturday, December 09, 2006
What It's Like (Everlast)
We've all seen the man at the liquor store beggin' for your change The hair on his face is dirty, dread-locked, and full of mange He asks a man for what he could spare, with shame in his eyes "Get a job you fucking slob," is all he replies God forbid you ever had to walk a mile in his shoes 'Cause then you really might know what it's like to sing the blues
Then you really might know what it's like Then you really might know what it's like Then you really might know what's it like
Mary got pregnant from a kid named Tom that said he was in love He said, "Don't worry about a thing, baby doll I'm the man you've been dreaming of." But 3 months later he say he won't date her or return her calls And she swear, "God damn, if I find that man I'm cuttin' off his balls." And then she heads for the clinic and She gets some static walking through the door They call her a killer, and they call her a sinner And they call her a whore God forbid you ever had to walk a mile in her shoes 'Cause then you really might know what it's like to have to choose
Then you really might know what it's like Then you really might know what it's like Then you really might know what's it like
Bridge
I've seen a rich man beg I've seen a good man sin I've seen a tough man cry I've seen a loser win And a sad man grin I heard an honest man lie I've seen the good side of bad And the downside of up And everything between I licked the silver spoon Drank from the golden cup And smoked the finest green I stroked the fattest dimes at least a couple of times Before I broke their heart You know where it ends, yo, it usually depends on where you start
I knew this kid named Max Who used to get fat stacks out on the corner with drugs He liked to hang out late He liked to get shit-faced and keep the pace with thugs Until late one night there was a big gun fight and Max lost his head He pulled out his chrome 45, talked some shit, and wound up dead Now his wife and his kids are caught in the midst of all of this pain You know it comes that way At least that's what they say when you play the game God forbid you ever had to wake up to hear the news 'Cause then you really might know what it's like to have to lose
Then you really might know what it's like Then you really might know what it's like Yeah then you really might know what's it like To have the blues
ouch man.. found this song tt i heard b4.. juz nv paid attention 2 it.. it's kinda thru ya? looking into my past man..
there was a boy in a desert, who stumbled across a barrel of water. he sat down by it, realizing he wuz thirsty, an started drinking.
satisfied, he looked ard, an saw a little bud growing, an felt lyk he shld water it, an so he did.
a mongoose came over as well, an found relief in the boy's barrel of water.
his best fren came over to, of whom they shared everything, an soon sat by him..
soon the barrel was running dry..
then they both started talking..
regreting all tt sharing..
was it all worth it?
was it worth it 2 be so nice?
as time shortens, it slows down.. you just try 2 grab on to overything.. u want it 2 drag.. u want everything..
but they dun call it the sands of time for nothing, u can never hold on 2 it..
i'll miss all of you.. Sulyn, Ian, Qin, family, church peeps, old frens, Randall, all who i hav been able to talk 2 cuz i'm stuck at home.
dear.. i promise you, we'll get thru it ya?
*LUL, XXXXOOXXOOXOOOOXXXXXX*
ever.
Friday, December 01, 2006
it's cool 2 be depressed.. i wanna be depressed.. hahaha
ok scrape tt.. this is a nice song from my early teenage years.. ahaha..
Adema - Giving In
Will you walk me, To the edge again? Shaking, lonely, and I am drinking again Woke up tonight and no one's here with me I'm giving in to you
Take me under, I'm giving in to you I'm dying tonight, I'm giving in to you Watch me crumble, I'm giving in to you I'm crying tonight, I'm giving in to you
Caught up in life, Losing all my friends, Family has tried to heal all my addictions, Tragic it seems to be alone again I'm giving in to you
Take me under, I'm giving in to you I'm dying tonight, I'm giving in to you Watch me crumble, I'm giving in to you I'm crying tonight, I'm giving in to you
I look forward to dying tonight, Drink 'till I'm myself, life's harder every day, The stress has got me, I'm giving in.. Giving in! Giving in, NO!
Take me under, (I'm killing all the pain.) I'm dying tonight, (I'm sick of all that faith) Watch me crumble, (I'm killing all the pain.) I'm crying tonight, I'm giving in to you
Take me under, I'm giving in to you I'm dying tonight, I'm giving in to you Watch me crumble, I'm giving in to you I'm crying tonight, I'm giving in to you Take me under, I'm giving in to you I'm dying tonight, I'm giving in to you
those days seem so near yet so far away.. lyk alot of things happen in between liddat.. hahaha.. =) kinda miss those days now.. hahaha..
other songs i wuz into last time.. an picking up again:
Chevelle - The Red
Breaking Benjamin - Polyamourous
Korn - Freak On A Leash
Finch - What It Is To Burn
Story Of The Year - Until The Day I Die
RATM - Wake Up, Bullet In The Head, Testify (alot la)
AFI - This Celluloid Dream, Girls Not Grey
Orgy - Blue Monday, Fiction (Dreams In Digital)
and many more.. hahaa check them out.. they're reali not bad..
i'm unlocking my past metalhead.. Wahahahaha.. =)
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Jimi Hendrix Lyrics - Little Wing
Well, she's walking through the clouds With a circus mind, That's running wild. Butterflies and zebras and moonbeams And fairytales,
That's all she ever thinks about ...
Riding with the wind.
When I'm sad, she comes to me With a thousand smiles She gives to me free.
It's alright, she says, It's alright; Take anything you want from me, Anything.
Fly on, little wing.
been hearing old sch stuff.. an this song is nice! mayb exp the corrs version, too.. erm.. irish? hahaha
mite detail my current playlist soon..
it's coming closer..
feeling shittier..
p.s. where's the hater on my tagboard? hahaha!
Monday, November 13, 2006
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
nice song, but once again, another self parody moment.
Friday, October 27, 2006
maple rocks!
i have ventured the maplesphere and came back wit picture postcards of my quest!
sure beats actaully playing tt game.. hahahaha!
Monday, October 16, 2006
sat down in the living room today at abt 6.
chronicled the setting sun in my mind.
felt myself fade away to the ghost i once was.
i swear i could almost see thru my arm.
i'm fading.
Friday, October 13, 2006
i'm not addicted to aniting..
juz to the feeling of escapism.
this is wat drives me..
Friday, October 06, 2006
how did a weird song go from.
this
to..
oh well.. nid slp.. an sumting beta 2 do.. hahahaha!
Monday, October 02, 2006
... ian ur lecturer mite be right aft all.. hahaha..
IS BATMAN GAY?
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
o_O?! i wanna play drums in a wookie suit 2.. ok wait no i wan d stormtropper shit.. hahahaha =P
bored
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Ananova:
'Green' arms giant's lead-free bullets
A British arms giant is planning a new range of 'environmentally friendly' weapons - including lead-free bullets.
BAE Systems says it wants to design bullets without lead because it 'can harm the environment and pose a risk to people'.
The company also aims to make 'quieter' warheads to cut noise pollution and 'eco-friendly' rockets, reports The Sun.
Scientists are also working on bio-degradable explosives and grenades that produce less harmful smoke.
BAE director Dr Debbie Allen said: "Weapons are going to be used, and when they are we try to make them as safe to the user as possible to limit the collateral damage.
"We also try to impact as little as possible on the environment."
But Campaign Against Arms Trade spokesman Symon Hill said: "This is laughable. They make weapons to kill people. It's utterly ridiculous."
okok.. here's an update! i went shopping for drum stuff today!
